Venting Absolutely miserable new year

[sif]

I keep bouncing between wanting to die immediately and wondering when I can enact my plan to feel a strong desire to try and fix my income and muddle along through this mess somehow temporarily. I know inside myself what I want and yet knowing what I have to go through to get it makes me want to crumble into a pile of bones and dust.

I'm so exhausted and miserable

how are you?

 

[Pegasus]

Just like you. One moment I'm ready to ctb and the next I find a reason to live. It's getting beyond ridiculous now. Ordering my SN and anti emetics after the holidays cuz I'm sick of this uncertain state of mind.

 

[sif]

Just like you. One moment I'm ready to ctb and the next I find a reason to live. It's getting beyond ridiculous now. Ordering my SN and anti emetics after the holidays cuz I'm sick of this uncertain state of mind.

I just want a place to myself :( I can't deal with my family.

 

[Jodes]

Can't get suicide out of my head

 

[stellabelle]

Miserable, frustrated, tired, haunted, annoyed, disturbed, struggling, hopeless, isolated, angry.
I look forward to the day this miserable existence ends.

 

[sif]

Miserable, frustrated, tired, haunted, annoyed, disturbed, struggling, hopeless, isolated, angry.
I look forward to the day this miserable existence ends.

Same here, my best friend just got back from his holidays anyway, at least now I can whine at someone all night long right :/

 

[sif]

Can't get suicide out of my head

Not liking this post not because of you but because I don't like this post :(

 

[NotWorthLiving]

Yeah I'm kinda the same as Jodes.
Like I'm constantly thinking about it and I wanna do it but at the same time I'm a little hesitant for some unknown reason