About to join the military and I'm not sure if I'm about to fuck my life up

[miles-away]

I swear in this morning for active duty. My waiver got approved and it's dawned on me what I'm really committing myself to. How every relationship I have will be impacted by this. How I'll be close to 30 when my four years is up. How I have little to no respect for the military and I joined as a kind of impulsive decision. How every job I qualify for is shit and I have zero interest in pursuing as a civilian.

I've joined as some last ditch effort to get my life together. I've been a neet living in my parents house in my early 20s. No degree and I've been pussyfooting about community college. I'm a self admittedly bad student and I feel like my chances of getting into a semi-prestigious university at this point are dwindling. My full-time job is cushy but it's minimum wage. I don't like that I'm still living with my parents while a lot of my other friends have moved out of theirs. My parents also just...aren't good people. I live in a shitty, boring town and my boyfriend is another state.

Idk I feel like I won't be happy no matter what decision I make. I stay here, join the national guard, live with my parents and feel like I'm endlessly spinning my wheels Or join the military, be surrounded by dumbass 18 year old's and people as lost as me and be stuck in a job I don't care about.

 

[DivineSpark]

Military service is mandatory for males in my country (those who have citizenship) but I couldnt attend because of mental health problems.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Well done on the effort and for taking the step in the new path that you've chosen. To help with decisions for change, I'd tell myself that I know what I have now, and if it's not what I want and some opportunity/choice appear, then I should give it a try because if I don't, I will end up being stuck in the unwanted known forever.

 

[bankai]

I feel you've done a positive thing. let's see, only time will tell.