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raybd

Experienced
Dec 4, 2019
213
If you are close to "the" moment, if you are religious (no matter which one), do you plan to pray just before you go? What would you pray for?

Since most people who go, go in haste and anguish, whereas people here - says 60000 members (overall or current idk) - are more deliberate than that... was wondering.

My time has been years coming as my untreatable autoimmune disorder has deteriorated - now paused by a spasm, trying to get it back on track.
But, as I've moved from the US, finally to some pleasant hills in south central India, as the unholy mess played out. Have had a lot of time to reflect about it all.
Personally, I am facing going with rock-hard steadiness as I can see that the law on death with dignity and medicine have not caught up with rare conditions like mine. A few hundred years ago, they couldn't treat the plague. A hundred years ago, consumption still killed. Five years ago, corona killed. In about 2 decades, they will have a cure for my condition too. I just see it that way. No frustrations of life, no pain, regret or just anything. Just recognition of another of the very many stochastic occurrences that make up human life. Were I the praying kind, I wouldn't know what to pray for here.

Wondering what goes on with other people on this site...
 
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dewasrite

dewasrite

Too old for this sh!t.
Dec 30, 2025
48
That is a great question. I am not the person who prays, so that won't be the case for me but now I am wondering also. Especially with suicide being a giant NO as far is religion is concerned. I do know a couple that prayed together every night before they went to bed and they did pray together the night she successfully ctb. If I had to guess, I would say she did it so he did not suspect she was planning for that evening but I don't know. It is entirely possible she prayed for help, courage, hope… maybe she just prayed for a peaceful passage. If I prayed before I ctb, it would be for that.
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,047
I'll probably put my scapular on, just in case after months of stewing in sin a little cloth and some string can save me from eternal damnation.
 
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dxm

hopeless bleh
Jan 23, 2026
6
I wouldn't pray, as the outcome would be the same. Why should I pray if my beloved Lord and Saviour hasn't helped me once through my prayers? And if suicide is really a sin as they say, I'd rather burn than love such a deity.
 
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raybd

Experienced
Dec 4, 2019
213
Actually suicide is not uniformly considered a sin in all religions. In some, it is acceptable under certain circumstances. In some societies, it is even expected in certain cases - like the seppuku of Japan.
 
finaldestination22

finaldestination22

Member
Oct 30, 2025
24
The Bible does not mention anything about suicide but some connect it whit the You shall not murder commandemnt and since suicide is self murder you can say it's a big sin of course. But then again can murderers who repent can't be forgiven? I don't know where it says that they can't.

In the end God judge us all and being saved is a gift not a merit
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,014
No god has ever made anything significantly better for me in my life ... so no I will not pray because no one will ever answer and because I don't believe in religion . All religion are man made and suicide should be something between you and yourself .
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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It's a good question. I don't know. I pray a lot. God knows where I stand. Knows what's in my heart. I suppose that's enough. If I can go through with my plans and given how I lived my life, I don't know that I can be saved. I hope so.
 
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raybd

Experienced
Dec 4, 2019
213
The Bible does not mention anything about suicide but some connect it whit the You shall not murder commandemnt and since suicide is self murder you can say it's a big sin of course. But then again can murderers who repent can't be forgiven? I don't know where it says that they can't.

In the end God judge us all and being saved is a gift not a merit
What you say holds only if you are a bible literalist like some protestant faiths. Plenty of protestant groups do extend the sixth commandment to rail against suicide. Though you could find churches that narrow down the meaning and refuse to extrapolate by and large.
The proscription of suicide is pretty elaborate with Catholicism and a long tradition. So, there is no debate among them.
And you forget that most of the world - like 75% - is not Christian any way.
 
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BradGuy123

Student
Jul 6, 2025
128
My CTB is not imminent. I am not currently planning it. I would pray for a peaceful, painless transition and for comfort for the people who care about me that I am leaving behind. I would pray for the person who ended up finding me.
 
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Jello Biafra

Arcanist
Sep 9, 2024
432
My ctb is imminent, and I find the idea that some god is waiting to judge you in some cosmic courtroom as patently absurd.

The only judgment you face will be your own, as you learn that you decided to physically incarnate for the specific purpose of creating an environment and challenges that are meant to teach you something. You will learn that all of your actions have ripple effects on other people. However, this is done from a much more detached and objective perspective.

If you watch a lot of NDE testimonials, you will notice one overarching commonality - the feeling that as soon as they detached from the physical body that they are flabbergasted at how they placed so much importance and finality to their physical body. Religious perspectives were originally meant to provide for a familiar framework to go by once they defocus from a physical life. In the afterlife your environment is immediately manifested as your thoughts and beliefs. This is why in NDEs Christians often see Jesus or religious figures, Catholics may arrive at the Pearly Gates, people who believe they are going to hell may find themselves in a hellish environment, and the non religious have experiences completely devoid of these things - their expectations determine their experience. These are illusions, but no more or less illusions than what we call physical existence. What must be realized is that it's the power of your consciousness that is creating the environment you find yourself in.

When you stop focusing on a physical existence, you don't go anywhere. The afterlife is not a place, it's a state of mind, created entirely by consciousness.

Physical existence is more akin to a classroom than a courtroom. It's a trick you are playing on yourself to keep you immersed in such. Knowing that death is truly waking up from the dream of physical incarnation would completely cheapen the experience. So we impose a veil of amnesia before we are born.
 
OzymandiAsh

OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
374
My ctb is imminent, and I find the idea that some god is waiting to judge you in some cosmic courtroom as patently absurd.

The only judgment you face will be your own, as you learn that you decided to physically incarnate for the specific purpose of creating an environment and challenges that are meant to teach you something. You will learn that all of your actions have ripple effects on other people. However, this is done from a much more detached and objective perspective.

If you watch a lot of NDE testimonials, you will notice one overarching commonality - the feeling that as soon as they detached from the physical body that they are flabbergasted at how they placed so much importance and finality to their physical body. Religious perspectives were originally meant to provide for a familiar framework to go by once they defocus from a physical life. In the afterlife your environment is immediately manifested as your thoughts and beliefs. This is why in NDEs Christians often see Jesus or religious figures, Catholics may arrive at the Pearly Gates, people who believe they are going to hell may find themselves in a hellish environment, and the non religious have experiences completely devoid of these things - their expectations determine their experience. These are illusions, but no more or less illusions than what we call physical existence. What must be realized is that it's the power of your consciousness that is creating the environment you find yourself in.

When you stop focusing on a physical existence, you don't go anywhere. The afterlife is not a place, it's a state of mind, created entirely by consciousness.

Physical existence is more akin to a classroom than a courtroom. It's a trick you are playing on yourself to keep you immersed in such. Knowing that death is truly waking up from the dream of physical incarnation would completely cheapen the experience. So we impose a veil of amnesia before we are born.
I will miss you when you go!!! ; - ;

I agree with most of your conception of the afterlife. Not necessarily all, but I regard it as more accurate than most people's ideas here. The part about the veil of amnesia is also spot on.
 

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