ObsidianWatcher
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- Dec 12, 2025
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By way of preamble, I should make it clear that I am not currently suicidal and do not anticipate being so again at this point in my life unless something changes dramatically.
Sometimes, however, I still find peace in imagining the End. The Dark. The Quiet. The Stillness. Even knowing that I would not be there to experience oblivion, it brings me comfort to pretend for just a little while that I don't have a body. No aches, pains, dysmorphia, exhaustion. No input whatsoever.
Today I experienced a float tank, or sensory deprivation tank, for the first time. My hope was that I would be able to lose sense of my body. I didn't, at least not fully, though I did partially lose proprioception when I was able to keep my body from twitching involuntarily.
If I ever change my mind and decide to exit the stage, I'm not sure what method I'll go with. But if one exists which would allow me to simply slip away into the dark... That would be a lovely way to go.
Does anyone else take comfort in similar imagery?
Sometimes, however, I still find peace in imagining the End. The Dark. The Quiet. The Stillness. Even knowing that I would not be there to experience oblivion, it brings me comfort to pretend for just a little while that I don't have a body. No aches, pains, dysmorphia, exhaustion. No input whatsoever.
Today I experienced a float tank, or sensory deprivation tank, for the first time. My hope was that I would be able to lose sense of my body. I didn't, at least not fully, though I did partially lose proprioception when I was able to keep my body from twitching involuntarily.
If I ever change my mind and decide to exit the stage, I'm not sure what method I'll go with. But if one exists which would allow me to simply slip away into the dark... That would be a lovely way to go.
Does anyone else take comfort in similar imagery?
