Venting 3 things I remember why it doesn't matter if I kill myself

[ceelobling]

•We're all gonna die anyways
So what if i die right now? Death is inevitable for all of us. I'm just leaving this earth earlier than most people.

•There is no life if everyday is suffering Everyday I'm tired and everything sucks and everything hurts and I'm just exhausted in general. I hate being alive and I hate existing. I'm trying my best everyday, but I have no strength left. There are people who never even thought of or even attempted suicide that just exist normally in this world. Life is for people who don't suffer and have no issue living each day in this world. There is nothing wrong with that, it's just this world is for those people; it's not for a person like me. So why should I live here if I don't have life?

•We're all forced to exist
Whether you believe a higher power or a big explosion created the universe, no one asked to exist. Humans were born out of nowhere and now we're all forced to exist. I don't have to be here if I don't want to. I can kill myself any time I want. On top of that, my parents brought me into this world that I never asked to be born in. I know you can't say you didn't want to be born if you never were born, but I still have the free will to choose whether or not I want to be a living being.

Just some personal points on why I have no issue with myself committing suicide.

 

[amor.dor]

Every day is a day I question whether I'll live one more day or not. Every day is the famous "to be or not to be" dilemma.
Considering that no one wins this game of life—we all get a game over in the end—I live only out of curiosity to see who I'll become when I'm mature, and curiosity about what else I might see in life. But boredom has become something more and more common for me.

 

[Defenestration]

•We're all gonna die anyways

•There is no life if everyday is suffering Everyday I'm tired and everything sucks and everything hurts and I'm just exhausted in general. I hate being alive and I hate existing. I'm trying my best everyday, but I have no strength left. There are people who never even thought of or even attempted suicide that just exist normally in this world. Life is for people who don't suffer and have no issue living each day in this world. There is nothing wrong with that, it's just this world is for those people; it's not for a person like me. So why should I live here if I don't have life?

•We're all forced to exist

This

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand and I just want to be free from all the suffering in this torturous, cruel and dreadful existence as well, more than anything I wish this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was never imposed, I just never would had chosen any of this, I'll always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this painful, futile and deeply undesirable existence that is just suffering all for the sake of it that just leads to decay and death anyway, I just also feel so tired of it all.

 

[kuroshimi]

This.

I believe that only curiosity keeps me going. I want to experience things. But I have feeling that the world rejects me.

 

[lpdsvm]

Great thoughts. Same here.

I think it can also be used to justify living.
It's rare I think if one is alone and they don't hustle "running like a hamster" all day. It will lead to poverty and suffering hence CTBing