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[hrbdjdjdjdndjd]

Im too scared to kill myself but i really want to die i cant take anymore of this its so unbearable i just dont want to be here anymore and everything feels so meaningless and fake and i have a constant urge to hurt myself

 

[alleine]

What causes you so much suffering?

 

[hrbdjdjdjdndjd]

What causes you so much suffering?

I think traumatic childhood+ being isolated most of my life and just generally not satisfied and feel empty and tired all the time

 

[darksouls]

I am very sorry that you are feeling so bad
sending you hugs and love

 

[hrbdjdjdjdndjd]

I am very sorry that you are feeling so bad
sending you hugs and love

Thank you

 

[alleine]

I think traumatic childhood+ being isolated most of my life and just generally not satisfied and feel empty and tired all the time

What would it take to feel satisfied?

 

[hrbdjdjdjdndjd]

What would it take to feel satisfied?

Im not sure, right now i just want to give up but i think i wish i had someone who loved me

 

[alleine]

Im not sure, right now i just want to give up but i think i wish i had someone who loved me

I dont know you much, but what you say seems to be withing your reach.

Tbh I also need for someone to love me. Im extremely lonely...

 

[hrbdjdjdjdndjd]

I dont know you much, but what you say seems to be withing your reach.

Tbh I also need for someone to love me. Im extremely lonely...

Its not because i only ever seem to let people in who end up hurting me and feel uncomfortable when something genuine comes my way im not even sure why i just cant accept it

 

[alleine]

Would it help you to talk with someone from here?

 

[Zlo]

I think traumatic childhood+ being isolated most of my life and just generally not satisfied and feel empty and tired all the time

I feel exactly the same way. Empty, lonely, like nothing matters but figuring out my pathway. I'm sorry you're feeling like crap and I genuinely hope it passes and that you find just what it is you are looking for.

 

[hrbdjdjdjdndjd]

I feel exactly the same way. Empty, lonely, like nothing matters but figuring out my pathway. I'm sorry you're feeling like crap and I genuinely hope it passes and that you find just what it is you are looking for.

Thank you, i wish the same for you

Would it help you to talk with someone from here?

Right now i feel like i dont even want help i know im not doing myself any favours but i just feel like i dont even want to try and get better anymore

 

[Zlo]

Thank you, i wish the same for you

Thank you, I'd like to think we can all turn this depression around. I'm not totally sure for myself. I've felt this way for 30years continuous now. I'm 38 and cannot remember ever knowing happiness. It's so difficult when there's nobody to talk to who actually understands you. This forum is the most interested I've been in anything for years and I only joined yesterday.

 

[hrbdjdjdjdndjd]

Thank you, I'd like to think we can all turn this depression around. I'm not totally sure for myself. I've felt this way for 30years continuous now. I'm 38 and cannot remember ever knowing happiness. It's so difficult when there's nobody to talk to who actually understands you. This forum is the most interested I've been in anything for years and I only joined yesterday.

Sorry if this is very insensitive to say but im 21 and part of why i dont want to try is because i feel like it will never get better and this will be how it is forever, i feel like ive been waiting my whole life for things to improve too. Sorry youve dealt with this for so long

 

[Zlo]

Sorry if this is very insensitive to say but im 21 and part of why i dont want to try is because i feel like it will never get better and this will be how it is forever, i feel like ive been waiting my whole life for things to improve too. Sorry youve dealt with this for so long

Honestly, there's nothing insensitive about your comment at all. I still remember being 21 and feeling exactly the same way as I do now. However had I tried to overcome my struggles back then, I may be doing much better now. It starts with the present. Given you're only 21, please try to overturn this. I believe in you. I just wish I had believed in myself much sooner.

 

[alleine]

Sorry if this is very insensitive to say but im 21 and part of why i dont want to try is because i feel like it will never get better and this will be how it is forever, i feel like ive been waiting my whole life for things to improve too. Sorry youve dealt with this for so long

In my case depression will not disappear But if I had someone to share my life with it would give me strength to fight this shit... Maybe you can find something