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irregularreconcile

irregularreconcile

i'm such a coward; these wretched things i do
Jun 15, 2023
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Another entry.

I'm too tired to make this poetic or anything. The holidays fucking suck. I have spent so long trying to make everyone else's Christmas nice, and I'm huddled in a corner sobbingg and unable to process my own grief still.

Grief of all the holidays I lost. Of the family I lost. The normalcy. The peace.

Everything.

I want to die tonight. I can't do that, though- For my partner's sake. I have to wait until the time is ready. At the very least, February will be my first attempt at CTBing.

I hate the circumstances of waiting, though. This is exhausting.

I gotta go. Best wishes to yall.
*Not ctbing 2nite, partner walked in lol
 
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Freyja13

Freyja13

Today's air quality is mauve and speckled.
May 6, 2023
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Oof yeah holidays bring up a lot of emotions. If you can, remember to give yourself time and space to cry and feel your grief. These feelings demand respect and they will express themselves eventually if ignored.

Take care of yourself 💛💛
 
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irregularreconcile

irregularreconcile

i'm such a coward; these wretched things i do
Jun 15, 2023
65
I hate the holidays too, and I also am avoiding CTB for my partners sake.
Glad I'm not alone :"^) Sending hugs
Oof yeah holidays bring up a lot of emotions. If you can, remember to give yourself time and space to cry and feel your grief. These feelings demand respect and they will express themselves eventually if ignored.

Take care of yourself 💛💛
Thank you, I really appreciate it. Same to you!
 
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