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Greyhawk

Greyhawk

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Jan 3, 2025
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What's your ideal way to CTB? For me, the most beautiful way to die is during a winter night, lying at the edge of the forest in snow while looking at the starry night sky and feeling the cold northern breeze on my face. Feeling life slowly drift away after taking SN or something else. I really hope I will get to make this happen if I end up doing it and I won't die panicking in my room for the last moments of my life.
 
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getoutgirl

getoutgirl

<3
Mar 17, 2025
532
a clone of me pops up. better, more caring, more motivated, she lives on for me making everyone's life better and doing everything i've been unable to out of cowardice, guilt and fucked up brain. no one notices, they are just glad to se me doing ok. and i'm allowed to dig a big hole and dump myself in it.
 
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ringo99

ringo99

Mage
Apr 18, 2023
532
In my own bed in my room in the house I've lived in for over 30 years quietly by SN. I'm just a simple guy.
 
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jazzcat621

jazzcat621

My heart for the whole world
Jun 30, 2025
79
Laying on the rooftop watching the stars with my girlfriend. We talk about old memories, deathbed confessions, and things we wanna do in the afterlife as we count down the minutes to take SN. Afterwards we put on some calm music as we cuddle and give each other last kisses before we pass away.
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

The masochist who doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
514
Heart stab A hot woman that I'm deeply attracted to stabbing me to death while I cackle like a maniac. Bonus points if this is in marriage. Don't know what they'll do afterwards to avoid the murder charge though...might end up missing me too...doesn't matter in dream land I suppose.
 
jupiterflower

jupiterflower

Member
Oct 21, 2025
5
quietly drifting asleep after taking SN or N, cuddling my GF as she holds me tight until im gone.
 
liquid jen

liquid jen

Blind painting, my body's a disease
Sep 9, 2025
49
A friend and I shooting ourselves together.
 
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opiateinduced

opiateinduced

Too High To Die
Aug 17, 2025
6
Laying in bed with my wife, injecting our DOC and peacefully nodding into oblivion, cuddling together knowing we both passed on doing what we love best. Such a peaceful feeling.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,498
I just wish to permanently cease existing as peacefully as possible, I just want a death like falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep where finally I can be free from this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, I just want to never suffer again but if it's up to me I'd choose to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered at all, all I want is peace from the abomination of existence, I'll always find it so undesirable to exist, for me only non-existence is positive.
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
299
With SN or N, and there is someone to hold my hand as I slowly drift off to unconsciousness.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,847
anything that is guaranteed or close to it 99.9% or better and then painless quick easy. dobt want it to fail and remain alive with more beain6 damage.nothing else matters where i am or whatever only that i can do it and it works and then i don't want to suffer any extreme pain while killing myself or while living which is possible any day i opt into life i risk extreme torture . there is no guarantee any human or other sentient animal won't suffer extremely pain they never knew existed and for what a youtube video some news some social media eating fucking food you have to feed yourself all the time and work so hard to get the fucking food
 
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searom

Member
Oct 20, 2025
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What's your ideal way to CTB? For me, the most beautiful way to die is during a winter night, lying at the edge of the forest in snow while looking at the starry night sky and feeling the cold northern breeze on my face. Feeling life slowly drift away after taking SN or something else. I really hope I will get to make this happen if I end up doing it and I won't die panicking in my room for the last moments of my life.
mine is on my bed, alone at home, after taking a bunch of clonazepan and cutting my wrists open. i would put some nice song and wait it to be over.
 
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loakms8

loakms8

my forking dad should have used condom!!!!!!!!
Oct 19, 2025
49
so painless and so fast i dont even know i suicided

thats the dream suicide for me
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
727
The most important thing for me is for death to occur. Ideally, I would die in my sleep
 
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notreallybored

Specialist
Nov 26, 2024
306
ב''ה,

DGAF right now, so.. old room, family house, 'as I left it' though really might take some rearranging and a fresh mattress.

It's in an intensely Catholic state that I don't much like and never liked me, that drains me having anything to do with it, and if I actually had the house I'd be running out of money in a month trying to heat it while putting up solar over there never happens.. but "oh sure, you can go back for a day if you promise to drink hemlock there" sounds appealing compared to paying rents for an occasional moment of peace anywhere. Rosebud.

As much as the whole thing somehow is an awful allegory for whether Israel deserves Israel.. if "the love of your life" comes to you with a sob story about losing their family home and gets you humming along to Kate Bush asking G-d to 'swap our places,' run screaming, it does not get better.
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
116
Honestly I would want to die by sacrificing myself to blow up death star. But if we talk about realistic things I guess anything that is quick and painless, ideally pentobarbital injection.
 
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