• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block.

H

howunfortunateforme

Arcanist
Oct 2, 2024
448
If you had serious vision issues and insane insomnia would you ctb?
 
  • Like
Reactions: wren-briar
W

wren-briar

wrenbriar.gitlab.io
Jul 1, 2024
223
I'm absurdly nearsighted (not safe to drive with the best perscription available) and -for myself- this isn't a reason to CTB. If I couldn't function on my own because it gets worse, then it might be a reason -for me.

I've dealt with insomnia (nightmare driven) for at least a decade now. Again -for me- it wasn't a reason, in and of itself.

That said, the reason that I'm going to be CTB soon is because of what supposed MH "professionals" systemically did to me, supposed "treatments" that only made my situation worse and worse and worse, until a specific pivot point (for the full and detailed account read https://wrenbriar.gitlab.io/) I've woken up with nightmares related to that specific pivot point almost every single day since (and there was a really weird medical situation that led me to not sleep enough to hit REM for almost a month, and then I was declared braindead for 2.5 days; discounting that medical situations, I've been woken up by the nightmares every single day since). While I wouldn't CTB because of the nightmares, I am CTB because of the pivot point event and every single one of those nightmares remind me of exactly why I now longer fit in this f'd up world!
 
  • Like
Reactions: howunfortunateforme
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,939
That sounds so horrific to me, I see it as so cruel how there's all this suffering in this existence, personally I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, all I hope for is to never exist again, I'm so tired of suffering in this painful existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
  • Like
Reactions: wren-briar
H

howunfortunateforme

Arcanist
Oct 2, 2024
448
That sounds so horrific to me, I see it as so cruel how there's all this suffering in this existence, personally I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, all I hope for is to never exist again, I'm so tired of suffering in this painful existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. But anyway I wish you the best.
It's too much after waking up 4 hours of sleep in complete pain im
Ready to just end it. I need sn to get here stat
If I had the balls I'd jump
In front of a train right now
 
  • Aww..
Reactions: frailcoffee and wren-briar
F

frailcoffee

Member
Oct 13, 2024
30
If you had serious vision issues and insane insomnia would you ctb?
I have both. luckily my vision isn't as bad but I'm only now getting 4-5 hours of sleep everyday and waking up is so painful no matter how hard I try to sleep. I will ctb soon
 
  • Aww..
Reactions: wren-briar
H

howunfortunateforme

Arcanist
Oct 2, 2024
448
I have both. luckily my vision isn't as bad but I'm only now getting 4-5 hours of sleep everyday and waking up is so painful no matter how hard I try to sleep. I will ctb soon
Same what a sad ending all tbose out there sleeping and healthy used to be me untkl
I was polydrugged
 
  • Aww..
Reactions: frailcoffee and wren-briar

Similar threads

TearStainedSunsets
Replies
0
Views
97
Suicide Discussion
TearStainedSunsets
TearStainedSunsets
waistcoat
Replies
10
Views
316
Suicide Discussion
FuneralCry
FuneralCry
R. A.
Replies
24
Views
560
Offtopic
rainatthetraintrack
rainatthetraintrack