Would you rather...

[Xi-Xi]

If you could only attempt suicide once...

 

[Jisatsu]

Why not both

 

[FuneralCry]

The guaranteed one as all I want is to never suffer in this evil, dreadful and torturous existence ever again, every second is torture to be conscious and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from the terrible, tragic mistake of existence, I want to make it so I never have to suffer in this horrific reality where there is all this endless torture and suffering ever again, non-existence truly is all I see as positive in this existence that just tortures existing beings all for the sake of it.

I need non-existence to solve everything for me as existence is just so harmful and cruel, the existence of life is the most devastating terrible tragedy that just causes suffering and I find it so terrifying how a human can be tortured in this existence for decades longer just to face the agony of old age, all I want is to be permanently unconscious with no more suffering.

 

[Xi-Xi]

Why not both

That would be too easy

 

[inkmage333]

As much as I am a total coward who would prefer a quick and painless method, a 50% chance of dying is just too low for me to even try. I want it to be guaranteed that I'll die, because even if it hurts at least I'll no longer know pain after I'm gone

 

[EternalShore]

I can't really choose either~ >_< only being able to attempt once is such a big restriction and knowing my luck~ >_<

 

[ceelobling]

The guaranteed death. I'll force myself to power through it. The pain is temporary, just a little longer and it'll be over.

 

[Xi-Xi]

Damn half and half

 

[Higurashi415]

If you could only attempt suicide once...

What happens if I choose option 1 and I don't die?

 

[Xi-Xi]

You have to live with it

What happens if I choose option 1 and I don't die?

 

[mjolnir]

I would prefer it to be like a cell phone losing its charge: aware of the imminent shutdown, but without the feeling of pain.

 

[EternalShore]

I can't really choose either~ >_< only being able to attempt once is such a big restriction and knowing my luck~ >_<

This question is still really cruel~ >_< It's basically choosing whether you want a 50% chance to die now or die guaranteed from tylenol as all your organs slowly shut down! D: That'll basically be all the pain I'll have across my life condensed down into a few weeks without any of the goodness! Having had chronic pain before, ig, I'd choose the 1st one when I'm ready even tho I'm terribly unlucky, and its restrictions are terribly cruel~ :/ either way it already makes the incredibly difficult choice even worse~ >_<

 

[No_Body]

i'd take the 50/50

even if i end up a disabled vegetable plugged up to some oxygen tank, i'm sure my intrusive thoughts will stop, and i'll probably be way less sentient

 

[Xi-Xi]

i'd take the 50/50

even if i end up a disabled vegetable plugged up to some oxygen tank, i'm sure my intrusive thoughts will stop, and i'll probably be way less sentient

So you want your sentience to stop, rather than existence... Very interesting...

 

[willitpass]

I've already attempted both quick, relatively painless methods as well as slow methods. I've also attempted both shots in the dark as well as things I statistically should not have survived. At this point I have so much trauma from my attempts that I'm not even able to get myself to do either at this point, but if I were going to do it again I would need to know it would work. I can't survive another attempt. I've actually heavily, heavily considered self immolation, and would be willing to undergo the unbelievable agony of it if I KNEW without a shred of doubt it would work. But unfortunately, in this world, no matter what method you chose, nothing has a 100% success rate. If it did though, I would do it, no matter how slow and painful.

 

[Xi-Xi]

This question is still really cruel~ >_< It's basically choosing whether you want a 50% chance to die now or die guaranteed from tylenol as all your organs slowly shut down! D: That'll basically be all the pain I'll have across my life condensed down into a few weeks without any of the goodness! Having had chronic pain before, ig, I'd choose the 1st one when I'm ready even tho I'm terribly unlucky, and its restrictions are terribly cruel~ :/ either way it already makes the incredibly difficult choice even worse~ >_<

Well, that's the point of this thought experiment, hun... Will you gamble your life away? Or cheat the system and endure your punishment? Your inevitable death...lies in the heart of the cards...🃞🃜🂬🂽🂠

I've already attempted both quick, relatively painless methods as well as slow methods. I've also attempted both shots in the dark as well as things I statistically should not have survived. At this point I have so much trauma from my attempts that I'm not even able to get myself to do either at this point, but if I were going to do it again I would need to know it would work. I can't survive another attempt. I've actually heavily, heavily considered self immolation, and would be willing to undergo the unbelievable agony of it if I KNEW without a shred of doubt it would work. But unfortunately, in this world, no matter what method you chose, nothing has a 100% success rate. If it did though, I would do it, no matter how slow and painful.

First off, yeah, no, self immolation probably won't work, unless you live in the middle of the desert and have absolutely nobody around.

Second off, I'm sorry you're still alive, if you truly have nothing to live for

 

[No_Body]

So you want your sentience to stop, rather than existence... Very interesting...

it's hell to be aware of all your imperfections and shortcomings as a human

 

[Arvayn]

I starved myself to near-death, and I only survived because my at-the-time girlfriend hysterically begged me over the phone to call an ambulance when I finally entered cardiovascular shock and my heart was failing (I called her to say goodbyes, since we were long distance and she couldn't do anything to stop me). It was actually an extremely peaceful experience to slip away; I didn't feel any fear, or pain, just a lot of lightheadedness, and then the void until I woke up again to paramedics. It wasn't quite like being asleep; it was more of a flash forwards in time.

So, I already made my vote. But, to be honest, I did find myself rather attracted to choosing the 50/50, at first.

 

[Xi-Xi]

I starved myself to near-death, and I only survived because my at-the-time girlfriend hysterically begged me over the phone to call an ambulance when I finally entered cardiovascular shock and my heart was failing (I called her to say goodbyes, since we were long distance and she couldn't do anything to stop me). It was actually an extremely peaceful experience to slip away; I didn't feel any fear, or pain, just a lot of lightheadedness, and then the void until I woke up again to paramedics. It wasn't quite like being asleep; it was more of a flash forwards in time.

So, I already made my vote. But, to be honest, I did find myself rather attracted to choosing the 50/50, at first.

How long did it take to starve yourself?

 

[Arvayn]

How long did it take to starve yourself?

About a month or two. It wasn't that I didn't eat or drink anything at all; that wouldn't have worked. What I actually did was that I drank small amounts of water each day to wet my mouth if I got thirsty, and I ate a nutritionally deficient diet with slow-to-digest calories. I only had simple snacks to fill my stomach, in order to keep the hunger at bay. I would check the nutritional label each time to make sure I'm not giving my body anything it needs beyond the bare minimum to avoid hunger.

Your brain only really cares if your stomach is full. If it is, you'll avoid hunger, though you'll still get the side-effects of vitamin and nutrient deficiencies, like randomly passing out, and not being able to think very well.
That's from my experience, at least.

 

[InversedShadow]

Given my current state I'd choose the 50/50, but if I were to live as a vegetable for example.. I'd take the guaranteed option without thinking

 

[StoneCellaiver]

The guaranteed one, it's not as if we're going to suffer later on. If you've got family, or if you survive, it'll be hard to explain it away.

 

[Spite]

That's a tough choice.

I think I'd pick the latter; A slow, agonizing method that is guaranteed to kill me. If I have to suffer excruciatingly one last time before I can embrace an eternity of peaceful sleep, I'll do it.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Depends on how long it will take.. are we talking years of agony?

 

[heatnormal]

i remember bleeding out, slowly losing consciousness. i was at peace, happier than i had ever been. everything that followed took that from me. so, i'd rather feel every fiber of my muscles tearing apart.

 

[Xi-Xi]

Depends on how long it will take.. are we talking years of agony?

I was thinking more like hours, or maybe several days of agonizing pain.

 

[yosukelvr]

i'm not sure how hospitals work but maybe if a family member is nice enough and i turn into a vegetable from the 50/50 attempt they'll pull the plug or wtv

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I was thinking more like hours, or maybe several days of agonizing pain.

Mm, I've had months of agonising 24/7 nerve pain, if similar could do that again. But if someone is going to torture me, e.g., pull my nails out or stretch my body, I don't know how much I could take. Depends on how desperate I am, but I'm leaning towards the guaranteed option, preferably without torture by someone else's hands.