Venting Workaholism as a symptom of suicidal ideation

[NepenthesVentricosa]

I can't stand the quietness of non-stimulation. I need constant stimulation, constant work, constant distractions, otherwise I can't function.
If I were to ever stop, my mind might crumble.

The closest times I've ever come to CTB were when my work had come into question. My reason to exist is almost non-existent. I have no friends or family, all I have is work.

 

[Arlowantsushi]

I fully understand this.
Definitely try not to over work yourself though, I started doing 3 open to close shifts a week on top of my 5, 8 hour shifts a week plus have school on top of it and now I'm completely burnt out.

Work isnt distracting enough and its making me not work the best of my ability which is making me even more suicidal.

It is an endless cycle plz try to do damage control so that your work can continue being an escape as apposed to an extension.

(idk if that made any sense as i just got back from one of said 12 hour shifts)

Stay safe, I hope you find peace however that looks for you <3