Will you be missed?

[sancta-simplicitas]

Do you want to be missed? Are you leaving anyone behind? How do you feel about it?

I'm pretty sure the only two people who'll miss me is my two best friends. One of them already knows about my wish to CTB and supports, so she won't be shocked at least. My other best friend is the one who'll inherit me and while we've sort of drifted apart during the years I think it will be the hardest on her. Which I hate and feel terrible about. I'm pretty sure it will reach my other friends - both online and offline through them. They'd probably find it sad, but wouldn't grieve. Probably would reach my parents too, though I'm not sure exactly how. My mother would probably use it to manipulate people to give her money. My father I'm not sure how he would react. My sister wouldn't give a shit. Well, if I go this month she'd probably whine about it ruining her birthday. There's one person whom I'm terrified will find out, but no one I know has any ties with her, apart from being familiar woth who she is. I'm terrified of her blaming herself. I may ask my bestie to specifically not tell her.

I just want to be forgotten about. I don't want anyone to miss me, nor grieve me. I want to be thrown away to rot asap and I want people to move on with their lives as if nothing happened.

 

[submarinedownsea]

Prob not, i recently divorced my husband and he leaved the house, he dosent seem like he cares about it, not like i care abt him, i feel he is better without me and feeling free. My mom has alredy a lot of problems so this will be better for her, not the mention my dad who honestly would pretend IV never existed and my brothers are to young to feel it. I dont have close friends, or anyone to give me love or miss me at all. I want to be forget to, im ok with this, i mean iv been forgeted my all life so i understand u completly.

 

[Blurry_Buildings]

My parents will miss me. They are the type of people who work constantly and sacrifice everything to live vicariously through their children. If I don't die my own failure to grow up and succeed will burden them until they do.

 

[Off_Switch]

Yes, but only by the people that can't use me anymore.

 

[InTheAbyss]

I think a few people will miss me for a few weeks then I'll just be forgotten. I never got to live. So I think it'd be better that it was like I never existed in the first place.

 

[Dejected 55]

There might be a couple of people who will miss me at first, but I think long-term, not really. If there was anyone who would miss me that much, then I would know about it now... and I probably would not feel as alone as I do.

 

[abnormalshrimp]

My family will miss me very much

 

[sadman1897]

I have hundreds of people in my life who will be shocked and deeply upset . Only reason I'm still here. I wish I didn't have anybody who would miss me

 

[4Icarus]

One of the reasons I at least try to hold off until my birthday if I feel I may have to CTB is because I want to do my friends and family the courtesy of only having one day as an inherent reminder that I am no longer with them. Rather than both my birthday and the anniversary of my death.

I know I will be missed by at least three people and one is already one too many.

 

[nool]

There's tons of people who will miss me. I have friends and family who care about me, but I know they'll be better off without me.

 

[Archness]

No one at all. Well there's obviously the family I'm stuck with due to being a stay-at-home NEET, but to be fair, mother has wished I'd conveniently disappeared for a while now, farther is dead, and the others either literally can't care or could just get over it. Seeing how capable everyone is of continuing with father's death, confirms that they shouldn't be too hurt if I, objective burden that no one really liked, killed themselves.

 

[paranoidpeasant]

God I hope not!!

I try not to get close to people. I've been making sporadic ctb attempts for years now. Right now, there are people who depend on me, so I'm kind of stuck in obligation to at least try for them, for now.

Lol, it's really not working, if I could ctb and not fail I'd just bail on everybody.

Selfish, maybe, but I'm so, so tired.

 

[konkurs]

I don't think *I* would be missed, moreso everyone's perception of who I was. I will be buried under a name that is not my own, And My family will more than likely be grieving someone who died long before I actually did. The most miserable version of me will be immortalized regardless of whether or not I commit social suicide via transition (which is why I'm choosing to stay and go through with it currently. Ultimately if it'll be the same outcome either way i'd rather at least try to find joy in authenticity before I die, no matter what it costs me)

 

[Catch-22]

Simple answer no I will not be missed.. unfortunately I come from a family of narcissist they don't care about anybody except themselves! And I just spent the last year being severely abused and by a horrible ex narcissist that came back to finish what he started! He'll probably miss me because he won't have anybody to abuse but other than that no. Honestly I don't think anyone will even notice I'm gone except my mother that I live with she'll pretend she's sad for maybe a month or so and then realize that she'll have the freedom to live her last few years by herself and she will be more than happy

 

[skywhywalker666]

I think only my relatives and my 2 friends

 

[MicahBell]

Do you want to be missed? Are you leaving anyone behind? How do you feel about it?

I'm pretty sure the only two people who'll miss me is my two best friends. One of them already knows about my wish to CTB and supports, so she won't be shocked at least. My other best friend is the one who'll inherit me and while we've sort of drifted apart during the years I think it will be the hardest on her. Which I hate and feel terrible about. I'm pretty sure it will reach my other friends - both online and offline through them. They'd probably find it sad, but wouldn't grieve. Probably would reach my parents too, though I'm not sure exactly how. My mother would probably use it to manipulate people to give her money. My father I'm not sure how he would react. My sister wouldn't give a shit. Well, if I go this month she'd probably whine about it ruining her birthday. There's one person whom I'm terrified will find out, but no one I know has any ties with her, apart from being familiar woth who she is. I'm terrified of her blaming herself. I may ask my bestie to specifically not tell her.

I just want to be forgotten about. I don't want anyone to miss me, nor grieve me. I want to be thrown away to rot asap and I want people to move on with their lives as if nothing happened.

i have very little family. i'm sure they'll miss me, but it doesnt bother me. they never really respected me as a person anyway. They hardly know me really, so its more like they'll miss the persona i had to have around them to be accepted

 

[outrider567]

By a few people, briefly

 

[Corovaner]

My aunt will miss me, and my friend on this site too.

 

[dissociation]

I don't think I'll be missed after I die.

 

[knickknack81]

I do believe some people will miss. I have friends and family who will miss me but I hardly talk to any of my family anymore so while I believe they will be sad if I died, its not like any of us have a really close relationship these days anyway so how much would that matter (harsh but true). I have a few friends that I was really close with but as the years have gone by we have kind of grown apart. Nothing personal but as we get older and people move away and careers and families enter into a new phase, we aren't as close as we once was. I'm sure they will be sad but once again, dont talk them much for it to matter more then an "oh no, thats awful" and then be done with it. Oddly enough, the person who I am most concerned about is my ex partner. We were together for 6 years and then this year, after some things came between us and we started wanting different things, she ended it. We didn't talk for a few months but have been in contact these last few and trying to be on the friendship tip. I feel like if I was to CTB, she would really be effected the most. Not just because of our history and we are still somewhat in each others lives, but because she would blame herself for my actions. So that is the hardest one to deal with and it goes well beyond being missed.

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

I will be missed. However I believe in resilience because I've seen it in my own family, who lost a member for the same "concept" and coped in a reasonable amount of time.

 

[Redacted24]

I would, but to mitigate that I would intentionally "drift away" from my few social contacts over a year or two so anyone that *might* care would be used to my not being in touch or responsive.

Hopefully they'll assume that I'm just being the jerk they always suspected and think "good riddance" to that guy.

With some clever effort and a whole lot of luck there wouldn't be any remains found in any of their lifetimes.

 

[xanthe]

i think i'll be missed yea. but they'll miss someone that wasn't who i was. they never got to see that part of me rly it only exists in my head, so i feel a little dissociated from it in that way. i know that sounds rly harsh like i dont care but i do think abt it. i like to think that theyll be okay after a bit, but idk my dad told me afew yrs ago if i ctb it would ruin their marriage, which makes me feel pretty awful tbh. i wish i could stop existing and have zero impact on anyone in my life

 

[whywere]

Me missed? Heavens NO, NEVER EVER.

At the age of 69 now with no family nor friends, except here, I do not even have anyone to talk to ever, much less for a person to "remember" me. Walter who? will be the name of the game.

When I am dust, I will NOT even be any type of footnote in history, just garden fertilizer.

Walter

 

[littleearthquakes]

I know some people will make a deal out of it mostly for attention. I've had a lot of acquaintances and self centered people in my life that do that kind of thing when it comes to losses. Some folks in the social media communities I'm in might express caring too and most won't really have known me.

It kind of bothers me that few will truly be sad or miss me but others will pretend to care even though they couldn't be bothered to be there for me while they actually could be. Been pushed away and shut down my whole life. Maybe a few will be genuinely impacted but not many. In some ways that's probably good and makes me feel less guilty though.