Venting Why is it so hard to find a good method

[glitterpvppy]

I want out I can't do this anymore. I can't face my family. I have no future. I thought I had a method but I got the wrong SN. I can't gas myself bc of living situation. I can't hang myself bc living situation. I don't have access to any drugs I can overdose on. Real SN is hard to get. I need help accessing what I need so I can finally be at peace.

 

[violetforever]

i know what u mean :/ i am so desperate for a method

 

[glitterpvppy]

What do you mean by the wrong SN?

I got NaNO3 instead of NaNO2
If u know where to get the real thing tho lmk

 

[existentiallinguine]

I feel you. I was not expecting to plan to dish out so much money on methods too. So many of the places I'm finding for SN are insanely expensive and only deliver to schools because people seem to be catching onto its use, and that's on top of the antinausea meds. Tough for a broke college student who just wants out.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I just always suffer so much from how I cannot have the option to peacefully cease existing and never exist ever again, I see so much cruelty in how we exist in this horrific anti-suicide world where humans make the option of peaceful, guaranteed death inaccessible, I just want peace as well, all I want is peace from this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[Dinozauria]

I agree, it is really hard to find a good method :(
I spent like months searching until I settled on mine. Good luck with finding your way out

 

[witchcraft]

Why? Well, I fear it is by design unfortunately.

Farmers don't want their livestock self-slaughtering themselves. They want to work the horse to death, get everything they can get out of it, then beat the body some more in preparation for the glue factory.

 

[Untoten_]

I got NaNO3 instead of NaNO2
If u know where to get the real thing tho lmk

How ON EARTH did you get SODIUM NITRATE??? It's one of the most controlled chemicals on the planet.

 

[SeekingSerenity]

How ON EARTH did you get SODIUM NITRATE??? It's one of the most controlled chemicals on the planet.

Sodium nitrate is super easy to find as it doesn't have the same restrictions as sodium nitrite. While sodium nitrite has gotten harder to source over the years, I think it's a bit far fetched to fall it one of the most controlled substances on the planet as there's still ways to source it depending on where you live.

 

[glitterpvppy]

How ON EARTH did you get SODIUM NITRATE??? It's one of the most controlled chemicals on the planet.

Nitrate not nitrite (nitrite is the one that kills u)