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Falling down and I can't turn back
Nov 22, 2025
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Thinking that a psychologist care about you is like thinking that a hooker loves you, they don't really understand you, or so they6 didn't understand me. I have alot in mind about why I hate them but I can't really turn them into words but all I know is they wanted money and their research, nothing else. They don't understand the state I'm in or I was in, they kept saying things to do when I'm feeling down or something but they don't understand I'm not interested in it or I just can't do it and the fact that you can't fucking keep up the fucking useless grades up while also being suicidal. I know this thread looks like some bullshit, it's just how I felt.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒恄薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,013
A lot of psychology is built for people who still have spare energy. When you're suicidal... routines and "just do this when you feel down" are laughably unrealistic. It's like being told to jog while you're bleeding out. They sadly treat a crisis like its a motivation problem when it's always so much more complicated then that.
 
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Higurashi415

Higurashi415

i'll f*ck me in my own way
Aug 23, 2024
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I've switched about 4 therapists and 2 psychiatrists, which is admittedly not that many, but I've felt the same way. Maybe even more so by psychiatrists, which is why I hate them particularly. The people for whom therapy seems to work often didn't have issues that needed a clinician to be solved to begin with. Like taking a perfectly healthy person to a surgeon, did the surgeon fix them? I'd argue they didn't

A lot of psychology is built for people who still have spare energy. When you're suicidal... routines and "just do this when you feel down" are laughably unrealistic. It's like being told to jog while you're bleeding out. They sadly treat a crisis like its a motivation problem when it's always so much more complicated then that.
As if chemistry didn't exist. It's so annoying. Depressive states ALSO impact motivation, obviously, but I've had times where I felt filled with motivation and yet my body and brain simply refused to function. I physically couldn't lift the weight, I literally couldn't get any work done despite sitting on my chair for 8 hours. Motivation helps me to sit on the chair, but it won't help me get the work done, that's a chemistry problem.
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒恄薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,013
I've switched about 4 therapists and 2 psychiatrists, which is admittedly not that many, but I've felt the same way. Maybe even more so by psychiatrists, which is why I hate them particularly. The people for whom therapy seems to work often didn't have issues that needed a clinician to be solved to begin with. Like taking a perfectly healthy person to a surgeon, did the surgeon fix them? I'd argue they didn't


As if chemistry didn't exist. It's so annoying. Depressive states ALSO impact motivation, obviously, but I've had times where I felt filled with motivation and yet my body and brain simply refused to function. I physically couldn't lift the weight, I literally couldn't get any work done despite sitting on my chair for 8 hours. Motivation helps me to sit on the chair, but it won't help me get the work done, that's a chemistry problem.
I've had 4 therapist and 3 psychiatrist , and I've only had one good therapist and it's because he actually gave me advice and didn't just listen to me vent .
Every psychiatrist I've had has pumped me full of needless amounts of drugs for nothing to work... although it doesn't help that my depression and suicidal ideation is treatment resistant.
 

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