Why can’t I commit to doing anything?

[WallowingWillow]

I'm so incredibly tired of being stuck in this limbo of having suicidal thoughts and desires for most of the day, everyday. Why can't I commit to doing it, or commit to getting better? I just want to follow through with something for the first time in my life. Nothing is worse than being stuck in this place. It's the same record on playback every single fucking day.

 

[ratioinsanity]

what's helping me rn is being a nihilist, life is meaningless and we only have one of it, I don't see how killing myself could make things better, yea sure, I'd stop suffering, but then I also will never be conscious again and I'm just permanently gone, it's just...awful, but that's how I see it(massive cope)

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, I also feel so tired of it all. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[broken_stoic]

Survival instincts are a bitch. Depression is a bitch. Put them together and you get stuck between a shitty place and an even shittier place. I can't tell you what to do or how things will go, but if you still have the will to live at all, if you still want to, don't beat yourself up for not following through.