Who will you be leaving a note for?

[BrainSplatter]

Who will you be leaving a email or note or video message for?

I wrote out a email yesterday to send to the professionals in my life I thought I'd start with them first as my friends and family will be much more in depth and personalised and then I thought would it really help is it pointless does everyone deserve a explanation or some note saying something like I hope they find comfort knowing I'm at peace.

Someone I dated college who passed away recently it was really unexpected heart attack at the gym no health issues anyway I was hit deeply by his passing I haven't actually seen him in 4 years but the time we spend together the cherished moments I do miss him

Now it's made me think ok maybe I should leave a note for my past lovers like even though things went sour we don't talk anymore I guess they might still feel sorrow after hearing about my death I want everyone to know I'm at peace now this is what I wanted and that it wasn't a light decision something I'd been contemplating for some time.

Some people speak about journaling or writing themselves a message or note too.. idk if this is something I'll do but I'm considering it I don't know where I'd start idk if it would bring me any comfort reading it to myself before I die it seems rather pointless but I'll see

 

[NoHorizon]

Probably nobody. I know that's unhelpful to my loved ones but I wouldn't know what to say so I think it's best I just die quietly.

 

[BrainSplatter]

Probably nobody. I know that's unhelpful to my loved ones but I wouldn't know what to say so I think it's best I just die quietly.

I hear you, I forgot to add that as an option it was definitely something I was considering also. It's hard to put into words exactly what I even want to say but my young child will need it I know that I'm sure it'll be very hard for them to comprehend

 

[FrustratedGirl]

I wrote one letter and took a video for friends and family together. Not very long but some last wishes, saying sorry, they should be happy for me, it's not their fault (not completely true) and that they should carry on. And then I took a Video for the Person I had a (not so good defined) relationship with this year, that ended very unpleasant and sad, saying I am thankful for the time, wishing her people who are good for her and saying it's not her fault, I would have done it anyway.

 

[woodlandcreature]

i mean…i might write something for a few folks on here, but i have no one irl who would care.

 

[carterprobs]

I wrote a letter for my best friend but I don't know if I'll send it or not. I think sometimes it's easier to let people fill in the blanks about you, believe what they want to believe. The only thing making me want to send it is, I want him to know there's nothing he could have done, not to blame himself, those things

 

[orca1717]

In real life I don't really have anyone so no real need on that front. Ill throw out some words on here beforehand I think, might be nice to share a little about myself when it's time.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I will not be leaving a note to anyone, as I plan to make my suicide look like i overdosed on some drugs. My parents will be less sad if they think that i died of overdose than suicide. That's why im staging all of that.

 

[BrainSplatter]

I wrote one letter and took a video for friends and family together. Not very long but some last wishes, saying sorry, they should be happy for me, it's not their fault (not completely true) and that they should carry on. And then I took a Video for the Person I had a (not so good defined) relationship with this year, that ended very unpleasant and sad, saying I am thankful for the time, wishing her people who are good for her and saying it's not her fault, I would have done it anyway.

I'm questioning that myself whether to leave anything for my ex's specifically the ones that were never really that good from the beginning with very few good memories. I need to remember I'm doing this for me nevermind how they feel it's how I feel that really matters someone just said to me choose whoever you think is important right now and does it feel right or am I doing it out of guilt or trying to plaster old wounds no note or message will change what happened it's not like anyone will read it and suddenly like that they're spiritually changed. I feel like I'm doing it more so for my own peace of mind this is about me and to finally CTB I have to do it first otherwise then nothings holding me back I can be free

 

[FrustratedGirl]

I'm questioning that myself whether to leave anything for my ex's specifically the ones that were never really that good from the beginning with very few good memories. I need to remember I'm doing this for me nevermind how they feel it's how I feel that really matters someone just said to me choose whoever you think is important right now and does it feel right or am I doing it out of guilt or trying to plaster old wounds no note or message will change what happened it's not like anyone will read it and suddenly like that they're spiritually changed. I feel like I'm doing it more so for my own peace of mind this is about me and to finally CTB I have to do it first otherwise then nothings holding me back I can be free

Yes, I have thought about this a lot too. In my case, it feels right. I have a lot of good memories with her, only the ending was shit. And it was not just her, I also (unintentionally) did and said some shitty things. It was the first time someone wanted to be so close to me and than I couldn't handle when she was away…
So, do it for yourself or don't. When you're dead, it doesn't matter to you…

 

[BrainSplatter]

Yes, I have thought about this a lot too. In my case, it feels right. I have a lot of good memories with her, only the ending was shit. And it was not just her, I also (unintentionally) did and said some shitty things. It was the first time someone wanted to be so close to me and than I couldn't handle when she was away…
So, do it for yourself or don't. When you're dead, it doesn't matter to you…

I hope whatever you write brings her comfort. It's something I know I must do for more acceptance and clarity in my decision I don't think I'll fully commit to it otherwise my past failed attempts I never left a note only twice and those were the closest I'd ever gotten.

 

[GrayShadow]

I'm going to leave one for my friends, because I want to tell them things I've never told anyone before. Also, I'm a lot closer with my friends than my family so that also plays into that.

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

I originally was going to leave two notes- one for my ex-girlfriend and one for my sister. But I realized that my ex will be fine whether I'm around or not, life will go on. She's been through worse and also doesn't even like me. My sister may not recover if I go through with it, so the letter I leave better be a damn good explanation and source of comfort/advice or else I couldn't live with myself (lol)

 

[TidalWaves]

I have made a note addressed to my parents, my brother, my best friend and my now ex boyfriend. My ex and I still have feelings for each other and he has been trying to help me a lot through my depression but at this point I am beyond saving. I have drafted a letter on Google Docs but I plan to transcribe it to my own hand writing as I want it to feel more personal.

 

[AstralMadness]

My best friend and other friends. My girlfriend doesn't even care about me anymore, so..

 

[OOUUneverover]

I kinda want to write to everyone I'm affiliated with in some way.
In practice? I probably will write next to nothing.

 

[dogdrool]

I tried to write notes but it's a lot of pressure, honestly. I started keeping a video diary after my first attempt, there's about 24 entries on there but they stop mid November. I probably won't add anything else because I can't be bothered, maybe once I come up with my next concrete date. At the very least, I'll record a video on the day I decide to do it.

 

[kitkat9234]

Not sure about leaving a note. It's going to be obvious it's a suicide as my method is sn. And I'll leave a binder with all my account log ins for credit cards utilities etc. important contacts and life insurance info. Plus my will. I feel like I should though as I've laid everything else out. But what do I even say? I only have my daughter and my mom maybe my ex husband but what do I even write? What do I say to my 11 year old daughter???? (Yes I know I'm a shit mother for wanting to CTB when she's this young but I'm doing more harm than good by being here but judge away….)

 

[DANDO]

Mom

I don't want to hurt her. But i would leave note only to her