restingplace
Aspiring corpse
- Mar 7, 2024
- 140
I've come to the conclusion that I will likely ctb after I finish university. I would like to see if life can improve but I know that truly it is hopeless, I'll go down the same path as my mother and I won't get to be truly happy.
I'm leaning towards jumping or hanging for my method this time, I want a solid method that is sure to let me rest. I live in a town that's known for its infamous Bridge, I believe its around 43m tall, falling from it would practically insure death but it would be a long walk to the peak of the bridge which may be stressful and can cause suspicion (from what I've heard it's illegal to use the walkway there now because of the amount of suicides) I think it would be the most peaceful and painless way, the view there at sunset is truly beautiful, I've always wanted to get to experience a view like that before. If I calculated right, it would take roughly 3 seconds before I hit the floor, enough time to take in everything around me and also not overthink too much.
On the other hand there's also hanging. I have a pretty sturdy 7mm nylon rope, I've tested it when trying partial suspension and it should do the trick, I'm not sure if SI will intervene too much. I had a friend (we weren't all too close but we had mutuals) who took their own life by using a ligature and they only passed away 3 days after the initial hanging. I don't want to end up with brain damage if anything doesn't go to plan or be left paralysed, I'm also afraid of how much it might hurt even with socks.
Does anyone have any advice on which would be the better option for me and insights into how painful and likely both of these methods are.
I'm leaning towards jumping or hanging for my method this time, I want a solid method that is sure to let me rest. I live in a town that's known for its infamous Bridge, I believe its around 43m tall, falling from it would practically insure death but it would be a long walk to the peak of the bridge which may be stressful and can cause suspicion (from what I've heard it's illegal to use the walkway there now because of the amount of suicides) I think it would be the most peaceful and painless way, the view there at sunset is truly beautiful, I've always wanted to get to experience a view like that before. If I calculated right, it would take roughly 3 seconds before I hit the floor, enough time to take in everything around me and also not overthink too much.
On the other hand there's also hanging. I have a pretty sturdy 7mm nylon rope, I've tested it when trying partial suspension and it should do the trick, I'm not sure if SI will intervene too much. I had a friend (we weren't all too close but we had mutuals) who took their own life by using a ligature and they only passed away 3 days after the initial hanging. I don't want to end up with brain damage if anything doesn't go to plan or be left paralysed, I'm also afraid of how much it might hurt even with socks.
Does anyone have any advice on which would be the better option for me and insights into how painful and likely both of these methods are.
