Discussion Where can one CTB? I don't want to traumatize anyone.

[taker_of_insulin]

I'm just curious where yall have decided or thought about where you're going to CTB.

I live with my sister and couldn't do that to her. She's done so much for me, and her finding me inside her house would be the ultimate slap in the face. She also struggles mentally and that wouldn't be fair.

The only thing I can think of is my car or a local park that is pretty large. The park has lots of trails that go deep into the woods. I bet only a few people a week go down the deepest trails in that park.

I've also thought about somehow doing it and then calling the police right before so they can find my body, but I'm not sure.

But yeah, where have yall thought about doing it?

 

[Dawnfang11]

Depending on your method, calling the police is probably the best way to fail your attempt. The park seems like your best option. Do it at night when passers-by are even fewer.

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

I suppose it depends on the method. I think deep in a large park is a good idea. I have considered that. I like the idea of leaving in nature.

The method I consider the most atm is bridge jumping over water. My hope is that I'd be swept away and not found for a while. I wouldn't want to be found by someone close to me, just to save them from the experience. Ideally I'd like to be swept away into the ocean, where being found would be even less likely.

 

[inkmage333]

I definitely plan on doing it somewhere outdoors. I've heard some stories about dead bodies/biological matter being really hard to clean from the interiors of houses, and I just don't really want to do that to the trauma cleaners and whoever owns my place of residence.

 

[taker_of_insulin]

I suppose it depends on the method. I think deep in a large park is a good idea. I have considered that. I like the idea of leaving in nature.

The method I consider the most atm is bridge jumping over water. My hope is that I'd be swept away and not found for a while. I wouldn't want to be found by someone close to me, just to save them from the experience. Ideally I'd like to be swept away into the ocean, where being found would be even less likely.

Drowning doesn't sound pleasant. I'm sure pure panic would set in as you hit the water and then your SI will kick in and you'd try to swim to shore. But you might not make it, so you'll likely die wishing you hadn't done what you did.

I definitely plan on doing it somewhere outdoors. I've heard some stories about dead bodies/biological matter being really hard to clean from the interiors of houses, and I just don't really want to do that to the trauma cleaners and whoever owns my place of residence.

What's your method you're most keen on?

 

[inkmage333]

What's your method you're most keen on?

Likely SN, but I'm still weighing my options

 

[taker_of_insulin]

Likely SN, but I'm still weighing my options

Do you already have the Nitrites? I've been thinking about that method also. I'm just afraid I'll go into panic mode after taking them so I need a bunch of benzos or opiates or both.

 

[BradGuy123]

Whoever finds you is going to be traumatized. If you do it in the park, you being found a by a family walking through the park. The problem is that family might include young children. It could really mess up a kid seeing a dead body in a park.

 

[inkmage333]

Do you already have the Nitrites? I've been thinking about that method also. I'm just afraid I'll go into panic mode after taking them so I need a bunch of benzos or opiates or both.

Nah, I haven't ordered anything yet and it's merely an option I'm considering before I do anything

 

[invisible4ever]

I'm just curious where yall have decided or thought about where you're going to CTB.

I live with my sister and couldn't do that to her. She's done so much for me, and her finding me inside her house would be the ultimate slap in the face. She also struggles mentally and that wouldn't be fair.

The only thing I can think of is my car or a local park that is pretty large. The park has lots of trails that go deep into the woods. I bet only a few people a week go down the deepest trails in that park.

I've also thought about somehow doing it and then calling the police right before so they can find my body, but I'm not sure.

But yeah, where have yall thought about doing it?

I have researched camping spots near hiking trails. I'll camp in peace for a week and when I'm ready I will ctb via firearm to the medulla oblongata causing instant passing. It will be my own green burial. I have somewhere with a spot for wifi so I can leave my phone there and I can have automated emails or texts sent to my few family. They know I've been suicidal for my entire life and don't care anymore but at least they won't have to wonder where I am. If I'm found at least my body will hopefully be too far gone to be pumped full of chemicals. They can do with me what they want if/when I'm found.