Venting when will enough be enough

[nobody_oac]

i can't take anymore

i tried to put in full effort but i didnt have the energy

i pushed through
i kept going
i kept working

then i couldnt anymore
the muscle was exhausted and done
i had no support and collapsed

i tried to tell them
nobody listens to me
they never have

i was nothing more than a tool

i cant stop the self hate
i cant find worth in the mirror
i cant forget the beatings
that heinous act
there is so much noise that never stops

im losing my voice
it cracks when i speak
i dont sound like me anymore
it barely sounds like anything at all

one day ill find the courage to end my pain
i wish it was now