when life starts to feel like torture

[Surai]

when life starts to feel like torture its like life itself wants you to cease to exist. its pushing you and pushing whisperingbin your ear to leave. proding you and saying just leave already. knowing its scared too of pain of fear and of death. and death hides and shows itself in so many ways. knowing that it could be near yet so far away. truly those who seek it out will have it. But im too scared to even bring myself close to a ledge. The body that holds us is afraid, but I am up here! so i wait until it becomes too much and life turns itself away from me and feeling of reaching a peak of adraneline and eagerness and commitement and full focus that this is the only thing i want, I need! And I will finally have the courage I need to end this.

 

[AbsurdAbyss]

Life and death, mirrors and scales - One points at reflections, the other deflections. One makes jury, the other judge. One creates a world for you, the other alienates you from the world. One is definite demise till the other is supreme surmise. This duality of opposites destroys itself when each finds its unassimilable nemesis in the other. Post destruction, only broken pieces remain, liberated from their forced, illusory unity. In death lies my hopeless hope.