When I have a health problem (not a mental one), I am less suicidal.

[Defenestration]

When I have a health problem (not a mental one), I am less suicidal.

And you?

 

[a-lien]

when I'm ill, then I can't be sad or desperate about other things (whatever makes me feel worse)
I think.. maybe because I can only handle "one" thing..

 

[witchcraft]

I can kind of relate, kind of not.

If I am just really sick with a cold or flu or something, I'm really preoccupied by that. So I get where you're coming from for sure.

But I was carrying 40 pound bags of salt down into the basement ~5 days ago and tweaked my back. Now I am worried I will have back pain for the rest of my life. My dad has had this issue and had to get two surgeries which still did not completely alleviate all his issues and stopped him from bowling, playing softball, and also golfing with me.

I am 25-29 and uninsured. I am out of shape but right where my weight should be according to doctors. How am I supposed to get into shape to prevent back pain (not that I have the motivation or dedication to do so) when my back is now screwed up?

My back pain has become another reason on a list that rivals the grievances brought before the King of England ~250 years ago.

 

[d-tea]

I get where you're coming from. Sometimes I wish I had some terrible illness (I know, it's stupid, you shouldn't wish upon that) just because then there'd be a valid reason for me to feel this way.
And maybe in a way just to feel some satisfaction of self punishment.

 

[Defenestration]

I get where you're coming from. Sometimes I wish I had some terrible illness (I know, it's stupid, you shouldn't wish upon that) just because then there'd be a valid reason for me to feel this way.
And maybe in a way just to feel some satisfaction of self punishment.

I think also this

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

The more worse I feel, the more survival instinct will kick in. The better I feel, the more I want to die. Weird isn't is

 

[ConfusedClouds]

Yes! Feeling ill makes me accept stopping and allowing 'rest'. I don't need to keep busy and distractions from my normal brain as its stuck in obsession with the 'illness' though that can yoyo between overthinking and feeling mentally worse (but it feels more 'acceptable' because its genuine pain/illness, not just being s mental shitshow around an objectively functional life). Less ammo to use to beat myself up because I can be allowed to feel rubbish when ill. But, as others have said, there's also a weird SI that kicks in - a motivation to prove things wrong and overcome adversity - I guess a way to try show off/attention seek maybe.

 

[Defenestration]

Plus je me sens mal, plus mon instinct de survie se manifeste. Plus je me sens bien, plus j'ai envie de mourir. C'est bizarre, non ?

Exactly same