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Danby

Danby

Just remember that the last laugh is on you
Aug 13, 2024
71
So I tried to cbt with the night-night method today, and once again failed. It seems so simple . . . but I just can't get it to work. So on to Plan B: shotgun. I have one picked out, that's even California Compliant (I live near San Francisco). I enter my credit card info, but something is stopping me from hitting "Confirm Order". Is it hope? Is It fear? Whatever it is, I need to conquer it.
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Visionary
Apr 15, 2024
2,017
Survival instinct
 
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SmilingNoMore

SmilingNoMore

Paragon
Nov 25, 2024
959
A bit of both, maybe? I usually sleep on things if I feel like this, if I'm not sure.
 
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SeekingPeace164

SeekingPeace164

Member
Mar 20, 2024
98
it could be hope, fear, survival instinct, or a mashed combination of all three, with some waves being stronger then others. Don't beat yourself up for it, it usually is extremely difficult to fight off survival instinct from both mind and body. I've had the exact same thing happen to me when I even click the link to the store of the shotgun I have in mind. I came to the decision to push it off and re-evaluate everything and decided it wasn't the time. But then again, everyone is very different so I don't want to make it seem like I'm assuming how you are feeling.

If you ever need someone to talk or vent to, I'm here ❤️
 
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liza

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Mar 2, 2025
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I'm scared of my parents finding it
 
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Cinnamorolls

Cinnamorolls

already dead inside
Apr 28, 2024
179
Guns are scary, simple as that. They are a brutal and ultra violent way to go. I went through with buying one about a month ago but it's just been sitting in the box the whole time, because I'm afraid of it. I'm in the bay area as well if you ever feel like talking.
 
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northevelyn

northevelyn

Little Void
Mar 26, 2025
66
I'm scared of my roommates finding the stuff
 
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bankai

bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
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Very true,guns are scary,they have the highest success rate but violent.
 
anonymous2025

anonymous2025

Still preparing to 🚍. 🌈
Apr 9, 2025
230
Might not be the right method for you. Your subconscious is in the way. To be honest. It takes balls, big balls. Back in 2011 I bought a s&w hand gun with armor piercing bullets, and held it to my head a few times. Couldnt pull the trigger. A few days later somebody broke into my car, stole my gun, 22 inch chrome rims ect from my Dodge Magnum. Right next to universal studios. It's safe to say there's to many other ways to make an exit. Just watch the show a 1000 ways to die.
 
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Zaphkiel

IDK
May 13, 2023
247
The cost also pays a part mind you.
I was all about inert gaz but the setup was expansive .. Ans... '' what if ''
If this '' what if '' Come to pass you're stuck again but with a lot less money so it's also a factor.

SN it is.
 
bankai

bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
1,924
Yes you have the wrong delivery address 😂

give mine instead
 
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leandra

leandra

Maaaaaaaaaaaaan wth is thiis
Feb 10, 2025
123
If you hesitated then you can definitely save yourself. I hope you can get yourself dome help
 
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bqueenorange1

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Jun 13, 2025
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Guns are scary, simple as that. They are a brutal and ultra violent way to go. I went through with buying one about a month ago but it's just been sitting in the box the whole time, because I'm afraid of it. I'm in the bay area as well if you ever feel like talking.
I can use it.
 

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