I feel like I could have/should have ctb'd years ago but I'm being pulled in three directions in my mind: (1) the desire to ctb; (2) the guilt over leaving behind friends/family/pets who would never understand my decision; and (3) a weirder guilt over abandoning responsibilities in my professional life. I'm totally nuts lol.
I get this, except #3. I got over that professional life guilt lol
Tired_of_myself
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- Jan 2, 2024
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the #2 really gets me, i feel like this can traumatize my family and wife…
My #3 would be fear of doing something wrong and survive… one time i took too many pills and went parcially blind and deaf for weeks of the intoxication and it was really scared… the plan has to be perfect and this scares me
My #3 would be fear of doing something wrong and survive… one time i took too many pills and went parcially blind and deaf for weeks of the intoxication and it was really scared… the plan has to be perfect and this scares me
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