Help What should I do?

[Molotongo]

My girlfriend sometimes treats me like shit
As an example, tells me to end my life, tells me that im just too sensitive and just stuff like that it gets more often, love and affection is getting more rare everyday.
This morning I said something like "good morning, I'm awake already" because I usualy don't wake up this early
she then just said
"fuck you" I asked "what did I do?" She said "nothing, so what?" Then I just said "okay I guess" she said "be quiet" I said "okay?" and then she goes "the way youre acting all hurt is so funny to me " then I said "can you at least leave me alone now?" Then she says "awwwww just leave me alone
Are you going to cry? " And she knows exactly that im sensitive, she knows it really well then I don't respond to it and she's like "holy victim mentality lol " and then I just said nothing and then she apologized "im apologising and I thought it would just sound more sincere that way ofc I dont fucking expect you to forgive me because I fucked up all the way but just so you know I feel bad for what I did" and I said "you know how I feel about this, you do it again and again and again.
You don't care about me at all you and don't even see the connection, don't even know what you did wrong and just called me too sensitive. What should I even say to this?"


And later she said "im so sorry "
I don't feel like I got enough reassurance and I don't feel like she ever loved me, she knows how I feel but its becoming more often that she treats me like that and I honestly don't know what to do I give her so much love and affection and she gives less and less and less and I can't leave her I miss her and I love her

What should I do now? I have genuinely no idea and need help.
Thanks for reading!

 

[webb&flow]

I think you should do what is best for you. The thing that will give you the most relaxation and the least stress. That will give you the best capability of liberty and serenity, and the least binding and injury long-term.

I honestly don't know what to do I give her so much love and affection and she gives less and less and less and I can't leave her I miss her and I love her

and I said "you know how I feel about this, you do it again and again and again.
You don't care about me at all you and don't even see the connection, don't even know what you did wrong and just called me too sensitive. What should I even say to this?"

I can see you are a reasonable and goodhearted human being.

It hurts to continuously try to appeal to someone's better nature, only to receive nothing better of nature in return.

You're probably always going to feel some level of love and affection and sympathy for her. The halo effect in psychology shows we are more likely to view people we like or love as morally exonerable; we forgive them for mistakes easier.

But it's possible to develop new love as well. Imagine someone who you pour your love into like a fountain and they give it all back to you and more, without breakouts of injurious disrespect that feel impossible to understand.

It's possible to work with conditions that cause a person to lose it sometimes, if they are self-aware, good-willing, and cooperative. Does your girlfriend display these qualities? It's really exhausting to work with someone who is both actively hurting you as well as actively fending off and opposing any idea of change or actual improvement. Consult with your self: How has she responded to genuine reminders and petitions for change in the past? You can determine if she is willing to truly put in the effort to actually change.

And think of your future together as well. Do you want this kind of behavior to continue for the rest of your life?

Either she needs to have her treatment of you uphold to basic standards of decency, or the level of intimacy in the connection must be reduced. It's hard to have someone deeply close, injuring you deeply.

I can tell you are a genuinely goodwilling and conscientious individual. You are very thoughtful and reasonable, you are most capable of being a good partner, and I personally feel you truly are. You are a valuable person who has so much potential for giving love, and recieving it as well. You have the power to strive for relationships you truly want. You can pick what you want and be able to be free from what you cannot prefer to work with. You got this. Best of luck.

In your path forward, keep your reason and your conscience with you.

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I think you deserve better.
She should not treat you like this. We can agree on this. I too wish she treated you better and that you could both love in peace. This is not acceptable behavior. This situation in your life needs to change. If she can't stop hurting you, is it fair to you to continue to make yourself experience that injury again and again, by choosing to not separate your body and mind from it? You deserve safety. Security. True love. Without abuse.

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You are willing to put in effort and hard honest work for a good relationship. You're willing to sacrifice for someone over and over again myriad petty unsexy ways every single day. Whoever you be with, this characteristic will shine through in you. You are capable of making the best of love. You can do this. You got this.