What should I do with my cat?

[AlistairSky]

This might be a minor concern, but I think about it a lot. My cat is 12 years old, and a bit of a handful. She's been abandoned multiple times and has anxiety and a lot of destructive habits. She's antisocial with most people and animals, but clingy with me.

I already know she's not going with my family. They're hoarders, they'll force her to cohabitate with other animals, and won't give her the stimulation she needs. I'll probably send her to a senior cat rescue.

The question is, should I do it before or after I die? I kind of want her to see my body and understand that I didn't abandon her. But I know that might be traumatizing in its own right.

I've honestly considered just waiting until she passes away, however long that takes, but I think that might be my cowardice talking. I came pretty close to shooting myself the other day, but she drove me crazy, meowing and scratching the carpet, and I lost my nerve. I feel so guilty about her, but maybe I'm using her as an excuse.

 

[aria_of_a_dream]

If I were you I'd wait until she passes away.. I recently abandoned my cat I had for 10 years because I was moving and wouldn't be able to take him with me, and the guilt from abandoning him is unbelievable. Probably the worst I've ever felt about anything

 

[mysticatedwine]

i agree with the person above. the precious and pure things of life are very rare, and a cat is one of them. we need to cherish them and protect them as much as we can from this strange, dangerous and depressing world

 

[BradGuy123]

I agree with the previous two replies. If possible, wait until she passes. She loves you. Rehoming her at 12 years old would not be easy for her. Whether or not she sees your body and someone else takes her to the rescue or if she is taken to the rescue ahead of time, she will be traumatized either way.