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girlsboysthems

girlsboysthems

no i dont have a gun
Dec 19, 2022
446
Failing at life, relationships, health, education and the worst of it at CTB.
I feel like garbage for good friends i lost,
im falling behind in life like i always was in school and in hobbies,
im attending a private university because i have never i life had more than mandatory (50%) attendence in elementary or high school, university didnt care about attendence until a year ago and i got fucked royally,
failing CTB is the worst thing and the biggest regret in life (three times mind you).

what does a fuck up do when you even fail at suicide???
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Enlightened
May 7, 2025
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Right there with you, including a recent failed attempt... and I find myself in a very real limbo of not knowing how to feel or what to do... and knowing I can't measurably improve my life but I also can't seem to end it either. I wish I had the answer... and if I did I would freely share it with all who suffer so they would know too.
 
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nails

nails

wait i'm goated
Feb 12, 2023
299
i'm in the same situation, i just posted a very similar thread and then saw this.
it's not much, but all i can say is that i hope you find some peace. a lot of the users here, including myself, have failed ctb so many times. there are just so many factors that go into dying and no one deserves to feel like a failure over surviving or even backing out of an attempt.
being stuck in this life when everything around you has gone to shit just isn't fair at all. again, i hope you find some peace or relief soon.
 
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ZornTheDreaded

Member
Oct 29, 2025
54
being born here is an automatic fail imo
 
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