Discussion what made you join SaSu?

[rainatthetraintrack]

i joined because my life sucks and that's why i want to die still not sure though so idk

 

[Nobodi]

Harrassment and bullying and stalking

 

[Lions303]

To try and make friends (even tho im terrified of pm'ing people first lmao) and joining in a community to learn how people managed to overcome difficulties in life to maybe use in my own life

 

[owarikigan]

joined first a few years ago to try and feel heard and understood. i don't think that will ever work out for me no matter the platform so i stay to keep track of and save diff methods / regimens etc for when there comes a day that i urgently need them

 

[meowmentous]

Joined just because of general depression and life issues. I've been having troubles as of recent years— but 2025 hasn't exactly been mine to really cheer about, sadly. Overall, depression, general anxiety, and OCD.

joined first a few years ago to try and feel heard and understood. i don't think that will ever work out for me no matter the platform so i stay to keep track of and save diff methods / regimens etc for when there comes a day that i urgently need them

Also hey, Matthias pfp! Moving on however, I understand you in a way, though. I knew about this website for years, and lurked sometimes… but for me, something inside me finally snapped and I joined and now I'm on here every couple of weeks or days. I didn't join a few years ago, not like you… but I certainly did read a few posts. Can't believe I came back here, and actually made an account, in 2025. Sadly, change and getting better is hard.

Nonetheless, I hope in some regard, you still feel heard and understood. I'm so sorry that life has brought you back here.

 

[aeri]

i truly needed to connect with other suicidal ppl and to find reliable ways to ctb back in the days, so in response i think someone on reddit told me about this forum

 

[darksouls]

in 2023 I was in an international forum and a few users talked about depressions and suicidal thoughts, another user posted a link to sasu
since then I was a long time lurker, for 6 month I was in a forum similar to sasu in my native language but I was banned, so I decided to make an account on sasu and I am thankful to be here, the community is supportiv and friendly

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I've been suicidal on-and-off for over 20 years, but this specific event brought me to SaSu: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2021_Western_North_America_heat_wave

I can't handle heat. Even 20C/70F is getting uncomfortable. And in that weeks-long heatwave, it was getting to 40C+/105F+. I was so close to killing myself during it. Hundreds of people died from the heat in my province alone, it was Hell.

Climate change will ultimately make me kill myself.

 

[w1ngedpearl]

I've been suicidal for a long time and never met understanding people. All I heard were cruel phrases like "don't be weak" or "get rid of these stupid thoughts". When I came across this website, I decided to join to get some support and be here for people who need it too. This place has the most lovely community I've ever seen.

 

[shampoo sniffer]

I genuinely think I am beyond help. Therefore death is the best option for me. It's good to be amongst a community of people who are going through the same thing.

I can't handle heat.

I feel the same way. I love cold weather. I've always enjoyed the sensation of cooling. I like cold drinks and foods and I love snowstorms.

I see that you're Canadian, winter must be a relief.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I feel the same way. I love cold weather. I've always enjoyed the sensation of cooling. I like cold drinks and foods and I love snowstorms.

I see that you're Canadian, winter must be a relief.

I'm in BC where we get mild Winters, but Fall/Winter is my favorite time of year. So much rain, I love the rain.

Snow is pretty, but being a cripple it's hard to get around in. A lot of years, I'll slip and fall and fuck myself up, which is how I got crippled in the first place as a kid.

 

[LighthouseHermit]

To find people who think like me, and give some support, and hopefully get some back. Suicide is a big taboo, and I'm glad I found this place where I am able to talk about it.

 

[Upon a hanging Body]

Wanting to learn from others on here

 

[westerly_merlin]

Recommendation from the BBC

I attempted a full suspension hanging in July but it hurt like hell and my SI kicked in.

I got some help and I am now getting therapy but I still have suicidal ideation and read about this site on a really biased news article. I lurked about for a few weeks and it seemed really open and supportive.

 

[Foraging]

Lonileness and connection im not a social person.

 

[mysticatedwine]

can't find any place in society, no groups, where i feel like i belong and am accepted for what i feel. sasu isnt perfect but i can express some of the things that i can't communicate anywhere else

 

[EternalShore]

To try and make friends (even tho im terrified of pm'ing people first lmao) and joining in a community to learn how people managed to overcome difficulties in life to maybe use in my own life

awww~ So neat! ^_^ I love making friends too! >w< It'd be neat to overcome the difficulties of this life, yesu~ :(

At the time I created my account, my life was very miserable to say the least~ >_< It's a bit better since then thankfully (like bad instead), altho there have been times where it has been miserable since then too~ due to how far down my life has gotten, I just wanted somewhere to talk about it that wasn't Twitter (which I was avoiding at the time, I think?) or AI (which was becoming increasingly censorious)~ and ofc, maybe help others feel appreciated and participate in fun forum games too! :) In my join request, I said, "I don't have hope for life anymore. Things have rather sucked for me for almost 5 years, and I've just given up on it all. idk whether I'll go into recovery, venting, going through with it, etc. yet, but I'd like to be able to talk about it with other people rather than AI's that constantly try to get you to call a dumb hotline or disable their responses."

 

[ThePainKiller]

people making me feel like shit, specially my first ex girlfriend, i realized that she manipulated me into staying with her, insulted me and let her friends talk shit about me, i still remember that her friends were a bunch of gold diggers who said she should leave me to find a rich guy instead.

i had to break up with her, and i havent talked to her in about 2 years already, i recently realized what she and other people did, and sadly they got away with it, so im left with being pretty much permanently damaged, and with the way my life is going on i simply cant take it for longer, i eventually found this forum and decided to join it.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Initially looking for suicide methods. But, I more or less immediately applied for membership, because the discussions looked really interesting.

As to why I'm suicidal. That started in childhood. Mostly now though, just the grind of life. I'm tired of working to support something I don't even want.

 

[dead dav]

Suicidal on and off for years but recent events got me looking for methods found su su on a Google search glad I joined as I think being with like minded people keeps me grounded

 

[hmnow]

I was looking for good ways to hang and how to either stream it or record it for others to see

Inhave figured out most of it now

I will be soon ending it

 

[biggestburden]

it seems like the only place on the planet where I wont be judged or forced to live

 

[unluckysadness]

Disability, social isolation, constant pain and so many other issues. It's the only place I can share my thoughts

 

[Irisse]

A depressive episode and paranoia which started on the day I registered. I feel hopeless and my actions only hurt my family.

 

[boovie]

My wife whom I love with all my heart died exactly 1 year ago at the age of 52 after battling cancer for 4.5 months. I saw her go through suffering the likes of which I cannot describe. For my entire life I've been a Christian but the more I reflect on the amount of suffering she went through the more I question my faith.....especially since she was a wonderful, beautiful person inside and out and God allows complete jackasses to live their lives in total bliss. My family thinks I should be over the grief. The happiest time of my day is when I lay down to hopefully go to sleep and every morning I wish I had not woken up. If I died today I could leave a fair amount of money to people who need it but the more I live the more I realize I will simply get old and sick, I will burn up the money I have, then I will die a miserable death.....alone because we didn't have children.

 

[uzl lover]

To find ways to CTB.

 

[Sinful]

I approached this whole concept of discussing such a "taboo" subject with a healthy amount of scepticism. Initially, I lurked unregistered for a hot minute. Once I saw what this community really was about AND once I had made my own decision, it only made sense for me to join.

 

[[Lord Void]]

I may detail further if I ever get around to making an introductory post but the impulse to finally join was caused by seeing that my original plan might not work (put hose in exhaust and feed it into my car for anyone wondering). I plan to discuss things here I won't in other spaces and to work out a plan for myself.

 

[I Me & Myself]

I originally saw someone talk about how awful this forum is, and how it's predatory. Forgot about it for a while. Then I used it for its resources (method discussion). I got more and more depressed and desperate ... Reading people had similar thoughts and general experiences was really really nice. Still is. Ironic, given I was told this place is awful and predatory.

All the lurking made me want to add my own experiences. So I made an account.

 

[fuzzydunlop]

I was researching different methods of suicide and I just happen to find this site. I'm glad I did.