What keeps you alive....

[happynot]

In your darkest hours what keeps you going? Does it go away? Summer time is worse ithink

 

[Mirrory Me]

"There's no darkness without a light."

 

[SoulWhisperer]

Lack of resources to CTB basically.

 

[HarryCobean]

Cowardice.

 

[darkandtwisty]

SI and I'm terrified of what comes after.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing would ever make me wish to suffer in this existence no matter what, I only exist as it isn't like I can just painlessly free myself from this cruel and torturous burden whenever I wish to, if it's up to me I'd be long gone, I'd be eternally unconscious of all the endless suffering this existence so tragically causes but sadly that is not the reality so instead I suffer, hoping for the peace that only non-existence can bring me.

 

[agony1996]

In your darkest hours what keeps you going? Does it go away? Summer time is worse ithink

My family, SI and scared of the act of dying

 

[newave3]

I want to see Trump reelected.
MAGA

 

[feelinggloomy]

My 2 pups and knowing I'll soon be able to join my son who CTB

 

[happynot]

My 2 pups and knowing I'll soon be able to join my son who CTB

I am sorry to hear that...

 

[Hollowman]

My mom

 

[grisly bear]

I am still alive because I cannot inflict the pain of my death on at least one person around me.
I have to endure the pain of my existence accordingly.
It hurts so endlessly to exist in this world.
Every minute, every second and every moment is just incredibly painful.
I don't know if I can endure it long enough...
But I will have to try...

 

[grungy自殺]

The right time for me to do it

As much as i want to die

There would be a certain time or age that i set that would the end for me completely and that moment of age hasn't come yet

 

[dolemitedrums]

It was staying alive for some people I love but those I loved the most and for whom it was most motivating and easiest to say one more day for them have died.

 

[happynot]

The right time for me to do it

As much as i want to die

There would be a certain time or age that i set that would the end for me completely and that moment of age hasn't come yet

Have you set it? For example you say I will die in my 59?

 

[grungy自殺]

Have you set it? For example you say I will die in my 59?

It'll be in my mid 20s (specifically age 24)

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

The silly things.

 

[wanttodie12345]

Lack of resources to CTB basically.

Same. I'm reminded of the Dorothy Parker poem below.

'Resume'
Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp;
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.

Dorothy Parker
I like dis

Really feeling the lack of resources today.

 

[mrtime87]

The fact that I can't kill myself. As much as I've fucked up, there's still hope I can end my days at least in a nursing home.

 

[executioner1983]

I've been thinking a lot about suicide actually --more than I usually like to-- but it seems irrational now that I've got a nice income of money flowing. I guess I could donate it but selfishly I don't want to. I still help others with it when I can but I guess I want to enjoy some of it too. It came about pretty easily as well (legally of course) so I don't really want to waste that. I just got really insanely lucky. I also have zero responsibilities at the moment so it just doesn't seem right. I want to travel and do fun things and now that I finally have the means I guess suicide just seems stupid. I will probably always still think about it though, it's hard not to.

 

[Lost Dreamer]

The inability to do otherwise? The only thing that I CAN do is carry on so I do that; no other choice

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Survival instinct. And that is basically it. And it sucks.

Living is so fucking overrated. I don't understand what is so fcking tabooo about simply not wanting to be here. What is so absurd and unthinakable about wanting to enter a state of nothingness without ever having to suffer, worry or stress about anything ever again. Sounds like paradise if you ask me. And isn't paradise what everyone longs for?

Every parent or person that is contemplating being a parent needs to seriously fcking think about this before bringing a child into this world against their free will.

Are you passing on desirable genes?

Are you financially able to provide a good life?

Do you have your own life together enough to even be thinking about being responsible for another for the rest of your own entire life?

Are you psychologically well enough to not constantly piss your children off or make them live in fear?

If the answer to any of these questions is no, and you still think it's ok to proceed with having children, then you are a stupid, demonic POS. Literally.



There was a thread I read here the other day about going under anaethesia and how it is probably the closest thing to experiencing a peaceful death. Euthansia in the form of anaethesia overdose needs to be legalized and made readily available. It's good for the people that don't want to be here and even better for the people remaining that want to live, after we are gone and no longer a burdens or menaces to society. Just fcking let us die.

 

[newave3]

I stay alive to vote against communists (democrats)

 

[sos]

my heart

it doesn't stop beating

other than that uhhhhhhhhhhh idk

 

[Arachno]

Having no resources and methods to CTB, fear of afterlife which I'm trying to get rid of and the potential survival instinct I would get if I was about to do it, but I can't know for sure how would I feel if I finally got ahold of a firearm to end myself with.
I layed on train tracks a few times and I always felt uneasy, the loud sound of trains when close to them is horrible, I wish at least had the courage to throw myself under a train if I don't have anything else to do it with.

 

[a.dream.of.a.dream]

Seems harder to get through each day lately. I have started to write notes but it's emotionally exhausting. Knowing I have to contend with SI is what's keeping me here. Same as others, if I had a quick and painless option I probably would not be writing this.

 

[No More Tears]

People, or something happens that prevent me from doing it.

 

[CatLvr]

My 2 pups and knowing I'll soon be able to join my son who CTB

My heart breaks for you. I would have already ctb if it wasn't for my pets. There is no one to take care of them if I go so until the last one passes I am staying. They love me no matter how bad I feel, or how little I get done in a day. They are all rescues. I am their entire world and I cannot abandon them.

 

[Katasumi4444444444]

The right time to CTB. It's already painful to constantly maintain an outgoing persona with friends and family whilst dead inside.

 

[Forever Sleep]

The feeling that I can't inflict that pain on my Dad. Plus, fear of doing it.

What keeps me going- and working and doing the bare basics in terms of hygiene and domestic crap? Because, if I don't do them, things will get far worse. I don't have much of a safety net in terms of finances or people who would support me.