What is stopping you?

[anorexiakilledme]

Something very primal in me stopped me from drinking the SN when I had everything ready, I don't understand why I felt so much impending doom and sudden desire for life after being so resolved. What is stopping y'all from doing it? I reckon most if not everyone here would immediately press a button to dissappear and go painlessly.

 

[Dreamwalker]

Dying is probably the most monumental choice you'll ever make. It's literally putting the power of life and death in your hands and transitioning to a state of non-existence, whatever that may look like or not look like. Don't beat yourself up for having a survival instinct !!
You will make the right decision in the end

 

[Untoten_]

Something very primal in me stopped me from drinking the SN when I had everything ready, I don't understand why I felt so much impending doom and sudden desire for life after being so resolved. What is stopping y'all from doing it? I reckon most if not everyone here would immediately press a button to dissappear and go painlessly.

Time. I have around 3-4 months left to live. If something doesn't occur, I'm going. If it does… that still depends.

 

[overmorrow]

survival instinct, a little bit of fomo too

 

[Lorthan]

I don't want to fail after I tried many times in the past

 

[heatdeath]

What is stopping y'all from doing it?

Employed full time for now until AI takes my job and my parents are still alive. Pretty much it.

When my parents go, I go too.

 

[thefarter]

honestly just waiting for Ramadan to be over. and then spend Eid with my family and then drink SN a few days later.

i think that's what i did last time. :3c

 

[FuneralCry]

I only continue to suffer in this existence as I'm trapped in this horrific reality wheee dying painlessly is a crime with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I always suffer so unbearably from being denied the option to just never suffer again, to me anti-suicide is just so evil.

There's so much terrible cruelty in how humans impose this existence in the first place that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured yet do all they can to force others to suffer and make it so they are tortured in this existence for as long as possible. Denying painless guaranteed death is such a terrible, dreadful unacceptable crime, I'd just never wish for the abomination of existence, to me existence is such a cruel mistake that only ever causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, for me only non-existence is positive, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the torture of existing.

 

[MyPropellerWontSpin]

Don't have a reliable method, and I'm a coward

 

[CatLvr]

My son. And my pets. Otherwise I would have climbed in the bathtub and eaten a bullet a couple of years ago.

 

[StupidCat]

Just waiting for the right moment

 

[Memorius]

Scared that if I do it wrong, I'll end up worse than I am now

 

[Cyc]

Just waiting for the right moment

Same here. I also want to see a few people before I go. There's also someone I want to apologise to in person before I go but every time I see them I freeze up. I could just message them but I don't really like talking about such serious things over text

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Something very primal in me stopped me from drinking the SN when I had everything ready, I don't understand why I felt so much impending doom and sudden desire for life after being so resolved. What is stopping y'all from doing it? I reckon most if not everyone here would immediately press a button to dissappear and go painlessly.

Fear of the pain of hanging. I get on the chair and can't step off. I would say I got close but horseshoes & hand grenades, right?

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

Im scared of failing, but also, theres still some irrational part of me that is clinging on to hope of things getting better. i know, the probability is very low, but whenever i go to seriously attempt, this little part stops me or makes me hesitate long enough for me to second guess myself and back out.
also, im a coward.

 

[CatLvr]

Im scared of failing, but also, theres still some irrational part of me that is clinging on to hope of things getting better. i know, the probability is very low, but whenever i go to seriously attempt, this little part stops me or makes me hesitate long enough for me to second guess myself and back out.
also, im a coward.

I see this "I'm a coward" in so many posts. You are NOT a coward. It takes a lot of guts to stay here when the other side calls to us like it does. You are so much stronger than you think, though I know from personal experience it certainly doesn't feel like it.

 

[thelostautistic]

Honestly it's mainly fear. Fear of it not working and ending up worse off and fear of it working and dying.

 

[tomatriste]

going to Hell

 

[hurb]

Being a coward but also it makes me so sad that my body will be hanging like that. It feels so sad. I wish i could die naturally but that might take too long.
I think i wanna die i wanna cease to exist but at the same time i dont wanna kill myself. Its as if im killing a human after all. Its weird ...

 

[Jun123]

The thought of my family getting the news. Also just don't know how yet

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

Something very primal in me stopped me from drinking the SN when I had everything ready, I don't understand why I felt so much impending doom and sudden desire for life after being so resolved. What is stopping y'all from doing it? I reckon most if not everyone here would immediately press a button to dissappear and go painlessly.

If I had SN I'd drink it tonight.... Backup method is 12G shotgun in thy mouth... but I'd rather not go that way because it would completely Crush my family

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

going to Hell

This gets me too, despite everything. I don't even know that much about Christianity but it wormed its way down into my mind and I can't really shake it. Noah's freakin Ark is part of it. What is wrong with me?

 

[MonochromeMind]

Lack of access to good methods.

 

[ForgetIExist]

Something very primal in me stopped me from drinking the SN when I had everything ready, I don't understand why I felt so much impending doom and sudden desire for life after being so resolved. What is stopping y'all from doing it? I reckon most if not everyone here would immediately press a button to dissappear and go painlessly.

I have to be 21 to apply for a LTC and there aren't any good spots around my house where I'm confident I could successfully hang myself without being found out by someone first. I've been suicidal since I started highschool and thought about jumping off a nearby water tower or intentionally crashing my car but the consequences of surviving would be too much for me. I don't want to make life worse by become a vegetable or getting out in a psych ward.

 

[jojobanana]

i don't have a method. nowhere to hang. i could try train. but dont want to be disabled if it doesnt work.

 

[metfan647]

My savings are actually keeping me here. I want to enjoy life a bit before I go. Just waiting for the right time to quit this job.

 

[ForgetIExist]

This gets me too, despite everything. I don't even know that much about Christianity but it wormed its way down into my mind and I can't really shake it. Noah's freakin Ark is part of it. What is wrong with me?

I don't know if this will help, but you could try thinking about all the BS, illogical, and immorally parts of the Bible. (Ex: The story of Lot's daughters) I would recommend checking out the lyingforjesus.org website.

 

[GroundControl]

Survival instinct, fomo, and heavy procrastination