Story what hope do i have?

[imtryingmybest]

my whole life ive struggled woth suicidal thoughts and attempts, the earliest i can remember was at 8 years old. im practically hardwired to have suicidal thoughts any time things get stressful now, and i dont think i will ever unlearn it. though its usually intrusive thoughts, it sometimes becomes more than that. Ive come to accept that my suicide is not a matter of if but rather when.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that it's true that once someone has considered suicide, it's impossible for suicide to not be an option for that person, no matter what the option of suicide will always be there. But it does sound like you've suffered a lot and it must be tiring what you have had to go through. I hope that when the time is right for you to leave, you find the freedom that you wish for.