What do you need to reconcile before death?

[dying_kwik2000]

Before you die, what do you have to accept or reconcile? Your relationships? The fact that you failed in life? Your mistakes? The unknown?

 

[darksouls]

nothing, I am already done

 

[Forever Sleep]

Primarily, I want to wait till my Dad goes first. Ideally, I want to get a lot of practical stuff sorted out. Phone contract paid off. Tax returns up to date. Information about bills/ service prodivers to hand. Notes written etc.

Psychologically, I guess I will have to be as sure as I can be that I'm doing the right thing. That fear of my future and hatred of my present is enough to push me over SI. That it's also worth risking repremands in an afterlife- if there even is one. I'm undecided.

I don't personally believe that suicide is a sign of failure. I'm not actually very unhappy with the amount of effort I put into life. I even achieved some of the things I wanted. It's more that I personally don't think it's worth the effort! I think it's reasonable to quit a rigged and unfulfulling game you never agreed to play to begin with.

As for relationships, I've purposely let them drift, asides from my Dad- who I'm waiting patiently for. So hopefully- the impact will be less on those left behind.

Mostly though, I need to somehow ensure that I do succeed in my first attempt- or, rounds of attempts. Ideally, I would like to have more than one method set up. Mostly though- when the time comes, asides from all the tedious practical stuff I'll try to get done, it will be about summoning the most tremendous amount of courage I imagine.

 

[CaptainSunshine!]

Personally, I don't see the need to finish anything before ctb. Nothing really matters, and all pleasure is outweighed by pain. But I guess when I'll be dying, I'll immediately be thinking about needing to finish some stuff before dying. Another form of the survival instinct.

 

[Macedonian1987]

nothing, I am already done

Same. I have reconciled with everything. I'm ready to go. 100% ready. If my parents weren't alive i would've done it in the next couple of days.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I will never accept nor reconcile anything in this evil life and evil world, this abominable imposition against me.

i will accept that i need to escape this hell and undo the horrible imposition and all things done to me.

we are all birthed into this world then brainwashed especially from ages 0 to 7 as i was .

 

[unluckysadness]

I'm OK with that. I can leave.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I'd just be so relieved to never suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence again, I don't see how it's a failure escaping from all future unnecessary suffering just to be tortured by old age, reaching old age sounds so horrific to me and I'd never wish for that, for me non-existence is all that's positive, all I see as desirable is the peace of an eternal sleep where this existence I always saw as a mistake is all gone and forgotten about, I just wish to be permanently unconscious but of course I wish I never suffered more than anything.