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JadedBeing

JadedBeing

Hey, I'm using SanctionedSuicide
Sep 17, 2025
194
I think no matter what happens i'm fucked for life because my parents did a really bad job and should never have made me. The bullying in school and then later at work Made me hate people and not able to trust anyone.

I guess i would be content if i did find a group of friends or atleast one good friend. If i have to work a job i'll always be miserable so if i become a successfull youtuber or just rich so i can be able to travel All the time that would be nice. I also want to live close to nature in a town with a small population maybe like north Skandinavia. With alot of wildlife.
 
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yesi

Faded
Nov 10, 2025
48
Real
 
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Quietist

Quietist

Lost Cause
Sep 6, 2024
250
Money and independence.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
966
I wish I knew.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
2,163
I was never happy
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
13,824
I'm not sure it exists for me either. I actually worked really hard to get what I thought I'd be content with- having a freelance creative career. But, I just think there are negatives to everything.

I suppose, the same as you- to have money. To live somewhere surrounded by beautiful nature would be a dream but then- maybe I'd eventually get bored if there wasn't a need to work.

Sometimes, when I get lost in a really good video game for a few days- when I don't have work- I think- I could live like this. I could be a happy NEET. But then- could I really? Is it just the contrast? How many really good and absorbing games are there out there anyway? How long before I'd be bored again?

I suppose more balance would help. My job is very all or nothing. And, during the 'nothing' phases, I'm too stressed about not having work to really relax. So- I'm pretty much constantly worried on some level. It would be good to be free of that. I'm a little more mentally disciplined now. Although, it's probably that I don't care as much. I think life will always have that worry to it though. It just seems so much nicer to think about being free of it all! Death seems simpler.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,129
No, I'd never be happy with being burdened with this torturous, dreadful existence of unnecessary suffering where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, existence to me is the problem and is an abomination and I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible, it's so unbearable to me how a human can be conscious in this existence for decades longer just to face the torture and agony of old age, for me only non-existence is positive, only in non-existence will I be at peace, I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything.
 
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martyrdom

martyrdom

inanimate object
Nov 3, 2025
222
Nothing possible
 
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MissAbyss

MissAbyss

⋆𐙚❅*°⋆❆.ೃ࿔༻˚𖠰˚༺࿔.ೃ❆⋆°*❅𐙚⋆
Jul 20, 2025
439
A healthy brain.
 
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OOUUneverover

OOUUneverover

Member
Nov 19, 2025
39
If the world became perfect. If there was no more suffering. Even still, I would kill myself. I am too evil to be allowed to continue living. It is over for me, and that's okay.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,040
A time machine. I need to go back and purge certain people from my life that caused me to end up here. Unfortunately, there is us nothing real that can fix me.
 
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Andarna

Andarna

Back To The Sky
Sep 14, 2025
71
I have no idea. I don't think anything would change how I feel. Maybe being accepted for euthanasia. I think I would be 'happy' during the waiting period for the scheduled date.
 
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Timeless

Timeless

May everyone find relief when it comes to it..🤕
Aug 15, 2018
72
Love , having money also creates lurkers..
And a house and find a like minded beautiful woman with Freedom in as much ways as possible ✨
 
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KenDuh

KenDuh

Member
Nov 1, 2025
78
To be honest, I don't know, I've tried things, but nothing never seems to be enough. I wish I knew.
 
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mjolnir

mjolnir

Member
Nov 15, 2025
87
If my mind were a healthier place to inhabit, I would already be happy. It's not as if I've never experienced happiness throughout my life, or as if my problems are bigger or smaller than anyone else's, but the pain still resides there and paralyzes me, preventing me from dealing with life.
 
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IDontKnowEverything

IDontKnowEverything

Please stop it
Mar 2, 2025
109
A healthy brain and a healthy society.
 
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LakeMungoGirl

LakeMungoGirl

Member
Nov 6, 2025
70
I think no matter what happens i'm fucked for life because my parents did a really bad job and should never have made me. The bullying in school and then later at work Made me hate people and not able to trust anyone.

I guess i would be content if i did find a group of friends or atleast one good friend. If i have to work a job i'll always be miserable so if i become a successfull youtuber or just rich so i can be able to travel All the time that would be nice. I also want to live close to nature in a town with a small population maybe like north Skandinavia. With alot of wildlife.
Only a cure for my tinnitus would make me happy, but it's incredibly unlikely I'll live to see one since fucking nobody takes my condition seriously. The last doctor I went to even insisted it's all "in my head". This world sucks. I hate it here.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,063
If u believe Life is generally good but it's only that you have Been unlucky then u might contemplate this question

to me life and this world are bad in general. Why would someone want to consciously want to be part of something bad something evil?

I don't think life and this world can be good if only magically certain things were changed as at any moment other very horrible things can trap any human

would never want anything from evil life and this evil world

I would never want to continue to be a slave, as a bag of cells in this hell

But even if the impossible happens and things magically change which they won't. under no circumstances would I want to live or exist

I only want to escape this hell asap. But another thing that gives a clue to how evil this world is they made every guaranteed painless suicide method into crimes like Nembutal or hiring someone to shoot me in the head 3 times no one is surviving that
 
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ctwc

ctwc

Member
Jun 17, 2022
59
It's hard to talk about it when you know very well what you need to be happier, but for a myriad of reasons, don't know how or can't get it

Talking about it only makes things harder. The only benefit is perhaps knowing people have it just as bad
 
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Custos

Custos

Martyr
May 27, 2024
328
Ultra powerful AI and simulations, where I can take the blue pill in my perfect world.
 
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madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
261
Health. I want my life back.
 
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X-sanguinate86

Student
Sep 26, 2025
165
To be truly happy I'd probably not only have to go back in time and change certain parts of my life story but also just parts of who and what I am. There are some concrete goals I could aspire to that, if they were achieved, would make me significantly happier but how can you be fully happy when you have been a failed, humiliated beta with no real character or personality? Is there really any way of erasing that kind of shitstain from your essence? Probably not so, as someone else said, death is just more simple.
 
AngelTear

AngelTear

Dead before 30
Oct 27, 2025
97
The main things that could possibly make me happy or even "fix me"

  • Find a new family to adopt me and give me everything I missed out on as a child and love me and take care of me
  • Find friends who actually take me out and do all sorts of shit with me not just playing video games
  • Move far away from my bio family
  • Find a well paying job and make lots of money
  • Buy a house
  • Live alone until I decide its time to die peacefully
 
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X-sanguinate86

Student
Sep 26, 2025
165
The main things that could possibly make me happy or even "fix me"

  • Find a new family to adopt me and give me everything I missed out on as a child and love me and take care of me
  • Find friends who actually take me out and do all sorts of shit with me not just playing video games
  • Move far away from my bio family
  • Find a well paying job and make lots of money
  • Buy a house
  • Live alone until I decide its time to die peacefully
This plus a life partner relationship of reciprocal love would do me just fine as well.
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
515
Health. I want my life back.
Same here. I need my health back and not to be so diferent from most of humanity due to my asperger's. All my life i have been avoided by all.
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Elementalist
Mar 15, 2025
885
For me, that's like asking "what would it take to divide by zero"
 
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