Venting What do you miss?

[catbunny]

Lately, I have been missing my mom so much. But she's still with me, and I still live with her. I don't even know if I really miss her or I'm just being too lonely to the point I want to be comforted by a "mom".
Growing up, we never get along well. Not bad, but not good. We have a lot of conflict actually. At one point, I did say I hate her and those words never left her mind ever since. That was one of the things I regret doing the most.
I worked at an exam preparation center. And whenever I see a kid there getting picked up by their mom, I can't help but missing my mom. My mom used to do that too. When I was a kid, she did that too.
I don't know if I miss her or the feeling of her, the concept of a mom, or do I miss being a kid again?

 

[Zura]

did you ever apologise for saying that if not then maybe apologise and tell her you got carried away and didnt mean it
maybe go out with your mom and do shopping or get some icecream if both of you are free
i love my mom too but it kinda sucks disappointing her but oh well it is what it is I guess

 

[Star67]

I miss who I was before mental illness took over my life. I miss my old friends who are no longer in my life. I've lost a lot in the last year and I miss it all dearly. My mum used to pick me up from kindergarten as well. I remember hating going to school; I was lonely there and bullied

 

[_Gollum_]

My health and my freedom (from my own brain). I would trade all the "growth" and "personal development" and knowledge that I've gained in the intervening years to be back in that unscarred body and brain.

 

[Quietist]

My health and my freedom (from my own brain). I would trade all the "growth" and "personal development" and knowledge that I've gained in the intervening years to be back in that unscarred body and brain.

I second this. Wasted years of my life in "nun mode", thinking that I was "forging myself in solitude", going down rabbit holes and learning occult wisdom.

And yet it hasn't benefitted me in the slightest.