what do you do to cope?

[diseasedstreetcat]

Thinking about suicide a lot but struggling with SI and unavaliability of methods. What do you do that makes you agonize less?
ive taken up a lot of creative hobbies. i like outdoing myself and art makes me able to depict or create things that do not exist in real life, so almost everything i care about

Unhealthy coping methods are accepted as replies as much as healthy ones, but i'd really like to hear your reasoning on why it makes you feel good/less bad. Not to judge you, i'm just curious about how people think and feel

 

[gimpyfairy]

I've been ripping / peeling my skin off my body since elementary school. The pain used to help me ground to reality a bit more and I felt a bit of satisfaction seeing my torn skin, but now its really more of a habit I can't stop than it is a coping mechanism, because I am used to the physical pain and I don't feel that satisfaction anymore.

 

[kissmegoodbye]

I've been ripping / peeling my skin off my body since elementary school. The pain used to help me ground to reality a bit more and I felt a bit of satisfaction seeing my torn skin, but now its really more of a habit I can't stop than it is a coping mechanism, because I am used to the physical pain and I don't feel that satisfaction anymore.

ive done something very similar as well and ill second it does help. i dont feel much pain from it either anymore however aswell, i tried putting some rubbing alcohol in the wounds so it can sting but over time that didnt feel like anything either after some time too.
finding a way to cope is already hard in itself when you know after time its not going to give you that satisfaction anymore...

 

[gimpyfairy]

I guess it changes with person to person, I personally wouldn't recommend tearing your skin off but that is sort of self-evident since society frowns upon visible scars.

The best way to cope would be something that brings long term satisfaction and that can be done any time of the day, which is easier said than done.

Thought about it some more and I guess I could say my appreciation for coffee is a sort of coping mechanism? Whenever I'm stressed I just brew myself a cup or make some sweet drink to enjoy, but I do need decaf if I want to be able to do it any time of the day. And its also not viable if you are outside. Turns out you need more than one coping mechanism.

 

[TBONTB]

So. I just scroll on Sasu. Are you wanting to change your cope?

 

[F@#$]

Booze,drugs,sex.

 

[fazzle]

I drink alcohol. Used to be 1 drink a night. Then 2. Now I need a few before any social interaction. I take a gin and tonic to the office and sip it all day. LOL how lame am I

 

[somebodyfromeast]

Art is my specialty. And my work is related to creativity. I used to have a lot of imagination and creativity... But now... Any attempt to come up with something ends in nothing in just a few minutes. Just nothing.
Now my days are spent in a state of incredibly strong anxiety. So I drink. Quite a lot. Just to drown out the agony and be able to sleep. It's not the best solution, I know.
And this method works worse and worse with each new week. But all other ways to hold on have ended for me

 

[diseasedstreetcat]

So. I just scroll on Sasu. Are you wanting to change your cope?

not really. i wish i could find more things i enjoy in life. all i care about is hanging out with my friends and creating things, i dont really take joy on anything else

 

[Wrath]

Videogames, anime, books, music, asmr porn, cooking videos, obsessing over fanfic, and doomscrolling.
I really want to learn how to draw too.

 

[kopebaldy]

It's used to be videogames but I lost my PC so idk, nothing really.

 

[leviant123]

Vent on here and a different chat forum, after that I gaslight myself into thinking everything is minuscule so I can feel better for the next day to try again, it's a never ending cycle.
However, my most effective thing has been spinning in a chair, I still do it now

 

[Klophy]

Sleep and daydreaming.

 

[Iamatiredlad]

I know this would be one of the most common answers, especially in a forum like this, but it's just to fantasize about being harmed or dying. My number 1 fantasy for some reason is just having a violently abusive partner. There's something strangely comforting about being the idea of belonging to someone whilst also being violently a source and outlet of their ire. I just think about it a lot, it can be very consuming sometimes but comforting in the same level of fantasizing about dying.

 

[TANETS]

I daydream. Excessively

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I just have no choice but to suffer as after all I'm so cruelly denied the option to cease existing painlessly, existing will always be so dreadful and painful and I always find it so deeply undesirable to be burdened with this torturous and futile existence, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for peace from the dreadful, cruel abomination of existence that I always saw as a mistake, for me existence really is the problem.

 

[TBONTB]

not really. i wish i could find more things i enjoy in life. all i care about is hanging out with my friends and creating things, i dont really take joy on anything else

Those are two pretty good things.

 

[HiImMisanthrope]

Video games, porn, reddit, music

 

[Irisse]

I study for Uni because it gives me a sense of purpose and hope that one day I will be financially stable. Otherwise I doomscroll this forum and reddit. I also watch random Youtube videos.

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

It used to be games and learning AI, but I have an inguinal hernia and can't sit on a chair UU'

1 year in bed, looking at the ceiling of my room, and still some months left until the operation. When you are suicidal, this is the type of things that help a lot xD

 

[58Alice85]

I put stuff up my butt until it bleeds while wearing female clothing

 

[divinemistress36]

Benzos, doom scroll, sleep

 

[somethingisntreal]

I stare at my ceiling and daydream. Occasionally go for a walk. If I get too lost in my thoughts I sometimes cut/burn/bite myself. Think about cbt methods. Maybe write some goodbye notes (it's kinda therapeutic). Try to study for college because I'm on the verge of failing my classes. If nothing else works I doomscroll for hours or read erotica.

 

[Spicy Tteokbokki]

It's used to be videogames but I lost my PC so idk, nothing really.

Losing my PC is one of my fears, as without it I'd legit have nothing to do. All my creative endeavors, media I watch, and the occasional gaming session would cease to be.

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As for OP's post, I walk and bike a lot. Beyond that I try to do creative things, like writing or drawing, which help me momentarily disappear from this world.
I also have the occasional "reset", where I drink some alcohol and try to get wasted while watching something I can immerse myself into, like a good movie or drama. For some reason that always improves my mood the next day at a minimum.

 

[qewpie]

as someone in literal physical agony 24/7 coping is very hard. right now im watching Hades 2 clips which increases the agony but at least im doing something fun!!

 

[synthetic_suicide]

Lorazepam, a lot of. It's fun because I use it for sleeping but then when I take it life becomes somewhat bearable and I don't feel like sleeping anymore