If I had the option to die painlessly that is guaranteed then that would bring me so much comfort, for me non-existence is the only relief and only in non-existence will I be at peace from the dreadful, torturous abomination of existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age.
All I want is peace from the burden of existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I wish I never suffered more than anything, existence really is a mistake to me and no matter what I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, I always suffer so much from being so cruelly denied the option to die peacefully to escape from this existence that was so tragically imposed, all I want is to never exist again.