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Hi everyone..

As the thread title suggests what do you think about that...
I find life much of a burden and I feel the worst is looming on the horizon,I would like to go before it hits..I am an unhappy guy,no friends, never been in a relationship, I do have a job but I feel like I am about to lose it.... Also I've had suicide thoughts and hating myself since at a very young age I remember my first attempt was when I was 8 years old..Since then until currently 27 very few days have gone without thinking about ending it all... I used to be religious but I recently found out the religion I was in is just a cult full of lies and kind of abusive. I am also a huge screw up cause I couldn't finish school mainly because of my mental health so my job prospects are very low and the one I have is just a street vendor selling milk from house to house here in Africa..
Like I said earlier it's had for me to make friends,I am always lonely and I don't see if I will ever find a partiner..living all the way to old age all alone is scary I'd rather go before I reach there...
Also I find this life to be meaningless everyday I ask myself, what is the purpose of being here I can't find the answer. Everyday I keep wondering why didn't my dad just use a condom when he fucked with mom that way I couldn't have been born..


My parents were abusive especially mom and I actually hate her though I am no longer sharing a roof with her but the way she treated me as a minor has left a toll on my mental health...in short guys I don't wanna live anymore I think I am useful when I am dead..


Now I want to make my exit as peaceful as possible. My method of choice is a plastic bag along with sleeping aids like phenobarbitals or Diazepam and an antiemetic .

I will handcuff my legs and hands using ropes, then take 200 pills of phenobarbitals or 200 pills of Diazepam along with an antiemetic to prevent throwing up, then put a large plastic bag over my head they will be doubled of course I will put on a painter's mask and a hat with a long trim secure the plastic bag with sellotape lie down and wait for the end, according to the book the final exit death will happen in 30 minutes


I am currently experimenting with this so as to get acclimatized to the situation..So what are your thoughts on this and what can I do to improve the above situation..

Also in your opinions what do you think is ideal to use,I mean effective to induce sleep Diazepam or phenobarbital. And do I have to starve myself before I take the pills and carry out the exercise??..

Waiting for your opinions...

I am sorry for a long post..
 
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eliosilver99

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So suffocation? I don't think that's very peaceful from my knowledge :/

And apparently pentobarbitals are pretty hard to get
 
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With enough sleeping pills, it will work. Timing is important.
 
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While I'm not really familiar with this method I'm honestly not a fan of it as described. Overdosing on sleeping pills is typically not fatal, so that would leave the likely cause of death as asphyxiation from the plastic bag. Your body can convulse or you may struggle enough, consciously or otherwise, to rip, tear or break free from the plastic bag. It probably wouldn't take much damage to the seal to let in enough oxygen for your body to be able to survive through the process. I'm assuming this is what the ropes are for, but I don't really see how you'll be able to properly secure the mask and bag over your head after having bound your hands and feet or vice versa. The necessity for binding yourself in such a manner as a contingency also seems to indicate that even in the case of success you'll be struggling rather violently, so I am skeptical of the peacefulness of the method.
 
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This has high odds of failing I think. Buy some SN or look into exit bags.
 
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Naw, not gonna work. Phenobarb is a barbiturate but isn't lethal as its very short acting. Valium isn't lethal.
Seriously, drug OD has a terrible track record. Too many variables.
If you pass out you'll fall asleep with a bag over your head, causing severe hypoxia & high chance of physical & mental disability including chronic vegetative state.
OD has about 95% failure rate 🤗🌹💔
 
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Opiate OD's also have a new enemy, narcan. Make sure you will be alone for a while. The stuff works like magic. One moment you are newly dead, the next moment you are fine wondering what the hell just happened.
 
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didn't work and now I am here it was indeed a terrible experience... I don't know what to do...I am stuck...
 
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outrider567

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Won't work, sleeping pills aren't strong enough to keep you staying unconcious when you're gasping for breath
 
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didn't work and now I am here it was indeed a terrible experience... I don't know what to do...I am stuck...
How many gallons large was your bag if you don't mind sharing? Which medications did you take? Were you able to rip open the bag even after you tied yourself up?
 
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encore

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Nov 14, 2024
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i suggest looking into inducing unconsciousness via nitrous oxide (from whipping cream siphon cartridges) if you're set on using a bag. there are some threads on it. some deaths were reported from people dying on accident while using this method to get high recreationally.
 
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i suggest looking into inducing unconsciousness via nitrous oxide (from whipping cream siphon cartridges) if you're set on using a bag. there are some threads on it. some deaths were reported from people dying on accident while using this method to get high recreationally.
Thanks for the suggestion.... Where do I get this whipping cream siphon cartridges and what do they look like....I am not a native English speaker that's why I didn't understand what this whipping cream is....Again thank you for the suggestion...
 
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encore

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Thanks for the suggestion.... Where do I get this whipping cream siphon cartridges and what do they look like....I am not a native English speaker that's why I didn't understand what this whipping cream is....Again thank you for the suggestion...
you should be able to obtain them online easily by googling the name. if amazon is available to you, that might be the place you could get it from. here's a thread with some discussions about this method:
 
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Nitrous Oxide is not lethal. Promoting this needs to be stepped on. A mixture of Phenobarb, which incidentally is a LONG acting barbiturate, benzos AND opiates is very effective in non-tolerant people only.
 

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