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OzymandiAsh

OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
380
We all have our more serious reasons, traumas and whatever for wanting to CTB. But what are your pettiest reasons?

For me:
* I do not want to stay alive only for my teeth to decay and have to go to dental appointments / spend a fortune.
* Life just feels like a series of meaningless chores that I hate. Cut your nails. Shop for groceries. etc.
 
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WallTermite

WallTermite

Member
Aug 16, 2025
96
Feeling bored as hell sometimes to be honest. Also, I sort of have some body insecurities that I could technically solve, but then I'm just feeling like I'm hiding my true (bad) self.
 
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amor.dor

amor.dor

Já não estarei mais aqui.
Dec 24, 2025
309
Am I having déjà vu? I swear I saw this topic before.
 
black money boys

black money boys

80% BAN CREDITS
Apr 18, 2025
518
Am I having déjà vu? I swear I saw this topic before.

no, somethings going on :o
theres another thread just like this one with the same OP but i explicitly remember leaving a reply there but its no longer there so this must be like the 3rd same thread
 
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Al_stargate

Al_stargate

I was once a pretty angel
Mar 4, 2022
812
My goldfish died few years ago and it completely ruined me mentally, haven't been able to recover since. RiP Goldie, we shall meet in heaven once again.
 
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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
1,604
My pettiest reason is that I never got to experience physical intimacy while I was still young and pretty and in peak physical shape. Now my body is nasty.
 
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OzymandiAsh

OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
380
Also, all the stuff that life requires, and you have to replace most of it every now and then. Like your phone or shoes. All is entropy and decay. I cba. 😭
no, somethings going on :o
theres another thread just like this one with the same OP but i explicitly remember leaving a reply there but its no longer there so this must be like the 3rd same thread
The exact same OP, from me?

This is the only thread I've posted about this, however I had trouble posting it, it didn't go through for a while, wouldn't be surprised if it glitched up for a bit lol
 
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black money boys

black money boys

80% BAN CREDITS
Apr 18, 2025
518
The exact same OP, from me?

This is the only thread I've posted about this, however I had trouble posting it, it didn't go through for a while, wouldn't be surprised if it glitched up for a bit lol

yeah but you weren't the only person i saw repeated threads from today — it must be a bug most likely due to you pressing the post button several times during the delay
 
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Jadotine

Jadotine

Clockwork Clown
Dec 28, 2025
69
I'm so competitive sometimes that when people flame me online and tell me to CTB, I suddenly want to actually CTB to prove them that I am actually capable of doing it 🙃
 
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SymphonyOfSuffering

SymphonyOfSuffering

Member
Nov 19, 2025
28
Life is boring sometimes
 
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fremmiefish

fremmiefish

i want to go home ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ
Jul 8, 2025
13
i want to hurt the guy who tried to groom me. we didn't actually do anything beyond flirting and we're still friends now but knowing he was willing to ask a 15 year old out pisses me off. even if he said that part of him was 'dead' i don't believe him and i hope that in dying that he'll feel as bad about that as i do.

also i just can't stand the thought of having to deal with living in general. this shit sucks what do you mean i have to work if i want to live
 
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Realog11

Arcanist
Dec 4, 2025
404
Life is boring sometimes
Same
i want to hurt the guy who tried to groom me. we didn't actually do anything beyond flirting and we're still friends now but knowing he was willing to ask a 15 year old out pisses me off. even if he said that part of him was 'dead' i don't believe him and i hope that in dying that he'll feel as bad about that as i do.

also i just can't stand the thought of having to deal with living in general. this shit sucks what do you mean i have to work if i want to live
I also can't stand the thought of living lol
 
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Deepdense

Deepdense

Student
Dec 30, 2025
147
I find it funny that I would have tried so hard to live just to deny myself in the end.
 
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ceelobling

ceelobling

Student
Dec 29, 2025
125
Dealing with family members. I hate all of them, I wish I had nothing to do with any of them. I wish I wasn't related to anyone.
 
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X-sanguinate86

Experienced
Sep 26, 2025
237
Pettiest reasons...hmm...well one is that i spend over 200 on a specially designed pillow that turns out to be a complete rip off. I'll just say it: don't buy from those specialty pillow companies. They are almost certainly scammers. There are special foams they use and that's one thing but the one's that have a special shape are for whatever reason, run by fraudsters and organized crime. They have subsidiaries of subsidiaries and contractors of contractors etc. that sort of thing. the pillow they sent me is about 4 inches high. that's obviously not going to work for a side sleeper yet they pretended it would. if we're being candid, i'd even go for a murder-suicide over this one.
 
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Xi-Xi

Xi-Xi

The Next Phantom Thief (Fae/Faer)
Nov 19, 2025
178
Fuckin hate taxes man, I said the same thing for the other post
 
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Lilithium

Lilithium

✨🌌~w o o f~🌌✨
Jan 6, 2026
53
I refuse to see myself age. I am convinced that even if I don't ctb anytime soon, I will not allow myself to live past 45 because I am terrified to see myself lose my youth. It's truly a vanity thing, I do not want to see myself old and I do not want to feel to old to do the things I want to do
 
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Oreki

Oreki

Member
Nov 25, 2025
76
I can't stand most people. I despise nature and the rules it has imposed. I don't align with my own programming, unlike everyone else. Even if hardly anyone feels this way, I don't want to be human
I refuse to see myself age. I am convinced that even if I don't ctb anytime soon, I will not allow myself to live past 45 because I am terrified to see myself lose my youth. It's truly a vanity thing, I do not want to see myself old and I do not want to feel to old to do the things I want to do

And this
 
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RosebyAnyName

RosebyAnyName

Staring at the ceiling for 6 hours
Nov 9, 2023
409
So I don't have to go to work anymore lol
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,067
We all have our more serious reasons, traumas and whatever for wanting to CTB. But what are your pettiest reasons?

For me:
* I do not want to stay alive only for my teeth to decay and have to go to dental appointments / spend a fortune.
* Life just feels like a series of meaningless chores that I hate. Cut your nails. Shop for groceries. etc.
I feel both of these big time. Oceans of black coffee have destroyed my teeth. And I just can't keep up with laundry, cleaning, etc.
I refuse to see myself age. I am convinced that even if I don't ctb anytime soon, I will not allow myself to live past 45 because I am terrified to see myself lose my youth. It's truly a vanity thing, I do not want to see myself old and I do not want to feel to old to do the things I want to do
This too. I'm 36 and bald and I know my athleticism is never coming back (even if I made a full recovery from knee surgery). Aging gracefully is for people who lived well when they were young. I have nothing but regrets and now I have to watch myself rot.
 
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Qilio3

Qilio3

But why, though?
Jan 4, 2026
26
I'm tired
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,913
Getting all wrinkly and old and decaying even more
 
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dejaentendu

dejaentendu

die young and save yourself
Nov 28, 2023
19
I want to emotionally scar my psycho mother and for her to know it's all her fault.
 
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