What are some key signs that it's almost time?

[Ambivalent1]

What I want from my life:
1) a job that allows me to live comfortably. Well, I haven't worked in years, so if I could get a job, it'd be low level. I would hate it and I'd feel humiliated.

2) to have a partner. But meeting people nowadays is difficult and I'm on disability. If I wasn't, I'd be doing a low level job, which is unacceptable in your 30s unless it's short term.

I get the impression that a lot of people live aimless lives and are somehow okay with it even if they don't have what they want. They just tolerate things. I have cptsd, etc and my mind is pain and tolerating things is just self-torture. I don't know what to do. What is there to persevere for?

 

[PoisonedOxygen]

Different for everyone.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Different for everyone.

Why even respond if that's all you're going to say?

 

[PoisonedOxygen]

Why even respond if that's all you're going to say?

Point one im sharing my opinion, point two im bumping your thread, point three because i simply can. What a warm response.

 

[Traveller12724]

1) When the thought of death brings a feeling of relief even though you may be scared.

2) When you have lost interest in most things in life.

3) When you are hanging with your friends and as soon as they start talking about their future plans, a thought occurs to you that you may not be there to witness their plans come to fruition.

4) When you accept the role you may have played in your own demise and not get bitter about it but simply recognize it.

5) When you walk down the street and feel kinda happy that you will be out of here someday soon even though you may be scared.

 

[Ambivalent1]

1) When the thought of death brings a feeling of relief even though you may be scared.

2) When you have lost interest in most things in life.

3) When you are hanging with your friends and as soon as they start talking about their future plans, a thought occurs to you that you may not be there to witness their plans come to fruition.

4) When you accept the role you may have played in your own demise and not get bitter about it but simply recognize it.

5) When you walk down the street and feel kinda happy that you will be out of here someday soon even though you may be scared.

1) and 2)

 

[Z-A]

To me personally, it's when there's absolutely nothing and nobody to live for, to the point where nothing brings you joy anymore.

Secondly, it's about mental and physical well-being. For example, if I suffered daily from unbearable pain, whether it's mental or physical, to the extent that it takes over my whole life, I personally wouldn't 'fight'. To me, it would be an absolute nightmare to get through, and I might act impulsively.

 

[Ambivalent1]

To me personally, it's when there's absolutely nothing and nobody to live for, to the point where nothing brings you joy anymore.

Secondly, it's about mental and physical well-being. For example, if I suffered daily from unbearable pain, whether it's mental or physical, to the extent that it takes over my whole life, I personally wouldn't 'fight'. To me, it would be an absolute nightmare to get through, and I might act impulsively.

I'm there already.

 

[Sad & Empty girl]

What I want from my life:
1) a job that allows me to live comfortably. Well, I haven't worked in years, so if I could get a job, it'd be low level. I would hate it and I'd feel humiliated.

2) to have a partner. But meeting people nowadays is difficult and I'm on disability. If I wasn't, I'd be doing a low level job, which is unacceptable in your 30s unless it's short term.

I get the impression that a lot of people live aimless lives and are somehow okay with it even if they don't have what they want. They just tolerate things. I have cptsd, etc and my mind is pain and tolerating things is just self-torture. I don't know what to do. What is there to persevere for?

yes, tolerating things is self torture. People do it a lot, it's like having to bottle things up. I have to do it with people who say they care and hurt me for the smallest mistakes or their misjudgement they make on me. I think it contributes to decline in health mentally. How do you help this?
(and its from people you care about)

 

[Ambivalent1]

yes, tolerating things is self torture. People do it a lot, it's like having to bottle things up. I have to do it with people who say they care and hurt me for the smallest mistakes or their misjudgement they make on me. I think it contributes to decline in health mentally. How do you help this?
(and its from people you care about)

Did you take that pfp picture?

I think what it helps is removing yourself from people like that.

 

[Sad & Empty girl]

Did you take that pfp picture?

I think what it helps is removing yourself from people like that.

Thank you and I put a random photo. I wish I could drive one.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Thank you and I put a random photo. I wish I could drive one.

Can you remove yourself from people like that? My immediate problem is my landlords. But I can't afford to move because I'm on disability which causes people to not want to rent a room to you

 

[Sad & Empty girl]

Can you remove yourself from people like that? My immediate problem is my landlords. But I can't afford to move because I'm on disability which causes people to not want to rent a room to you

oh, what happened with your family?

 

[F@#$]

When the revenge has been completed.

 

[Ambivalent1]

oh, what happened with your family?

Not an option but i wish I could.

When the revenge has been completed.

Who hurt your life?

 

[Sad & Empty girl]

Can you remove yourself from people like that? My immediate problem is my landlords. But I can't afford to move because I'm on disability which causes people to not want to rent a room to you

It's hard to when it's people you loved and cared for like a partner. I'm doing the best I could. Sometimes it doesn't seem real (How they treat me). I barley feel happy much anymore.

Like the more you grow up the more bleak the world seems.

When the revenge has been completed.

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Not an option but i wish I could.

Who hurt your life?

How does your landlord treat you? You can yap 2 me.

 

[Ambivalent1]

It's hard to when it's people you loved and cared for like a partner. I'm doing the best I could. Sometimes it doesn't seem real (How they treat me). I barley feel happy much anymore.

Like the more you grow up the more bleak the world seems.

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How does your landlord treat you? You can yap 2 me.

It's hard to feel happy when you're being mentally abused.

I wonder how common that belief is. I feel with every passing year that this world is a dreary nightmare.

They tell me that I'm free to make any noises I want and that I'm a great tenant but then they complain behind my back very loudly when I do just that. I've called them out on it every time though. Now it's lessened because I threatened to move out but that doesn't change the fact that I'm not welcome here. Their words and behavior aren't in alignment. People who were abused as children often feel like a burden. I can't stand feeling like that as an adult.

 

[Sad & Empty girl]

It's hard to feel happy when you're being mentally abused.

I wonder how common that belief is. I feel with every passing year that this world is a dreary nightmare.

They tell me that I'm free to make any noises I want and that I'm a great tenant but then they complain behind my back very loudly when I do just that. I've called them out on it every time though. Now it's lessened because I threatened to move out but that doesn't change the fact that I'm not welcome here. Their words and behavior aren't in alignment. People who were abused as children often feel like a burden. I can't stand feeling like that as an adult.

I'm sorry it has to be that way for you. You at least have a place to stay for now and try to not let their words affect you. Just only think of them as a landlord. They aren't good people so don't think about them or how they feel or talk about you. Focusing on other things could help with not thinking about the issues and will make it hurt less like try to go outside or to the forest if you guys have forests. I like going outside. but if you can't you can also talk to me or do other things.

Maybe if you only see them to pay rent then they will be less of an issue in your life.

It's hard to feel happy when you're being mentally abused.

I wonder how common that belief is. I feel with every passing year that this world is a dreary nightmare.

They tell me that I'm free to make any noises I want and that I'm a great tenant but then they complain behind my back very loudly when I do just that. I've called them out on it every time though. Now it's lessened because I threatened to move out but that doesn't change the fact that I'm not welcome here. Their words and behavior aren't in alignment. People who were abused as children often feel like a burden. I can't stand feeling like that as an adult.

I'm sorry it has to be that way for you. You at least have a place to stay for now and try to not let their words affect you. Just only think of them as a landlord. They aren't good people so don't think about them or how they feel or talk about you. Focusing on other things could help with not thinking about the issues and will make it hurt less like try to go outside or to the forest if you guys have forests. I like going outside. but if you can't you can also talk to me or do other things.

Maybe if you only see them to pay rent then they will be less of an issue in your life.

I'm not the best at talking but I hope I can help you.

 

[Raven2]

For me it would be once Ive lost all hope. I have glimmers of hope from time to time that keeps me here for the time being.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I'm sorry it has to be that way for you. You at least have a place to stay for now and try to not let their words affect you. Just only think of them as a landlord. They aren't good people so don't think about them or how they feel or talk about you. Focusing on other things could help with not thinking about the issues and will make it hurt less like try to go outside or to the forest if you guys have forests. I like going outside. but if you can't you can also talk to me or do other things.

Maybe if you only see them to pay rent then they will be less of an issue in your life.


I'm not the best at talking but I hope I can help you.

Thanks for your reply :)
I don't hear words, just complaining sounds in response to almost everything I do. Not as common now but it doesn't help because I know how they feel about me. I do my best to be a good tenant and every landlord has treated me well but not these ones. I rarely see them. My stress levels are always high. They can hear everything and it feels like I'm under a microscope. People without trauma could probably endure this better and would just avoid them and consider them a nuisance.

 

[Sad & Empty girl]

Thanks for your reply :)
I don't hear words, just complaining sounds in response to almost everything I do. Not as common now but it doesn't help because I know how they feel about me. I do my best to be a good tenant and every landlord has treated me well but not these ones. I rarely see them. My stress levels are always high. They can hear everything and it feels like I'm under a microscope. People without trauma could probably endure this better and would just avoid them and consider them a nuisance.

Well I have faith that you can get through this one way or another. You have me to talk to. I'm sorry you have to feel this way.

I'm not expecting things to be good right away or Tomarow or in a week or a month. I'm just hoping the best for you. I have thought like that in my life too. I wish I could feel and think better like other people and go on about my day.

All you can do is continue with the days you have though.

I'm really sorry this is happening. I'm here for you if you need it .