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MeltingBrain

MeltingBrain

Wizard
May 29, 2023
608
When you open you eyes, do you look forward to anything ?
For me its a bit of work and videogames
 
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kvsvenky100

Student
Dec 7, 2023
155
Death.
 
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blackwidow92

blackwidow92

Member
Nov 18, 2020
84
I don't look forward to anything, I don't really find enjoyment in anything anymore. I dread waking up everyday.
 
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Timothy7dff

Timothy7dff

Wizard
Apr 10, 2024
657
I will spend my last days trying to defeat Trump. It's the only thing that brings me pleasure any more. He intentionally destroyed my life. Alone, I make no difference. I just hope and pray this some kind of karmic reprecussions or God will stop this guy from hurting others like he hurt me.

It's a little ironic since I won't live to see the election. It's not possible to comprehend the pain & suffering this guy caused me. I wouldn't be suicidal if Trump didn't con me out of all my money. I went from full-time work, full-time school, playing in a band, and a new career........to sick and unable to get out of bed to work a part-time......all because I was stupid enough to trust a polician with my money.

Going to go to Twitter right now and try to spread the truth about this German Nazi. Literally the only pleasure I ever get any more.
 
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MyChoiceAlone

MyChoiceAlone

sleep deprived and/or drunk
Jul 23, 2023
1,231
first thought is lighting a cig. then a swig of whatever alcohol i have around.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
1,811
Nothing to look forward to.
 
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Themogger

Themogger

Why so serious?
Jul 23, 2024
241
I look forward to sleeping. I keep having dreams about my highschool days which is so comforting and weird. I should've forgotten about all that stuff by now
 
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LunarLight

LunarLight

i'm a loser, a failure
Apr 3, 2024
1,363
None. My brain is just unable to enjoy anything atm except a high dose of pregabaline every other day.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
I don't look forward to anything. I just get annoyed that I didn't die during my sleep and that I'm still alive
 
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kyhoti

kyhoti

Looking for fair winds and following seas
May 27, 2024
294
Right now, coffee and YouTube. After being locked up for 11 months, I've been catching up on things.
 
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fallingtopieces

fallingtopieces

Warlock
May 6, 2024
720
Cup of coffee and then it goes downhill from there.
 
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snow-angel

snow-angel

if i can’t have love i want power
Mar 31, 2024
48
Being with my animals :-)
 
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SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Severe Medical Phobia « MtF »
Nov 13, 2023
549
Anything that can distract me from suffering and the like.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,385
Checking this website lol.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,662
I don't as in my case I only wish to not exist. If it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never existed at all, I'm not meant for something so terrible and torturous as human existence and I'd certainly never want to suffer in this existence no matter what, I only wish for eternal nothingness. I find waking up into this existence to be something so dreadful and terrible especially as there is no limit as to how torturous this can get, I find it tragic to exist as a human capable of suffering so unbearably destined for nothing but to decay and deteriorate tormented by old age. It terrifies me how this existence could potentially continue for much longer, I really wish I never existed more than anything.
 
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SilentSadness

SilentSadness

In hell for now
Feb 28, 2023
1,415
To me life is just tiring, I don't really look forward to anything. When I wake up I mostly have to get ready for another day of slavery and misery. I definitely wouldn't choose this, anything positive is just a slight distraction from the reality of this world and my situation.
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,498
Lately, nothing tbh. I'm in a weird point where I have no job, nothing to do, and school doesn't start until late August. Plus I'm stressing again over virutally nothing, hence why I decided to browse the site today
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,062
Breakfast. I love breakfast and it's the only thing I look forward to, well besides my death......how sad my life has become.
 
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abyss@fmPf1KVp6

abyss@fmPf1KVp6

from iron to red drench
May 29, 2024
60
I dread waking up so nighttime and sleeping are the only things I look forward to each day, because I can escape everything I feel in every waking moment, however I stay awake as long as I can because I dread the fact that I have to live another day and dissociate until night again
 
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Raven2

Raven2

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2022
458
I look forward to finishing work and getting back to bed again so I can sleep and not worry about negative thinking for a least 7hours
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,481
nothing . the so called "pleasureable" addictions are part of the same evil as the most extreme torture and most unbearable pain. the dumb addictions like youtube sports social media news TV , media , movies are just bait for the worst suffering and very old age.

nothing matters. what will matter in 200 years? 10,000 years ? a trillion years ? nothing.

Evolution and culture / society implanted these addictions which are just worthless illusions that are in no way worth the most extreme pain and torture .

look at just one addiction programmed by evolution / DNA. the hunger for food addiction. you are a slave to your body . every human and animal is constantly hungry and has to work all day to eat all the time . i throw away bags of food packaging every day . i have to work a job eat 3 times a day , clean , wash dishes , shit, throw away trash , groceries labor and more just to feed this body these monstrous cells 3 times a day. the fleeting pleasure of eating the dumb food is not worth all that labor and then all the extreme pain possible on top of that. i hate eating i hate everything in existence. this is hell upon layers of hell . work a job chores groceries eat clean fix everything and more work all day just to exist to be under threat of something even more horrible happeninng to you then get old and suffer in old age more . all of it is meaningless . nothing matters only avoiding extreme pain.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,978
Quite frankly, defecation.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,280
Food. That's about it. I bribe myself to get out of bed in order to eat. Most everything else is more of a reluctant coping mechanism. Music and films etc on in the background help me enormously but, I don't exactly look forward to them.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
795
When you open you eyes, do you look forward to anything ?
For me its a bit of work and videogames
Not really. At this point I don't enjoy hobbies/friendships/family time so much as I prefer that to just stewing in total boredom. And even then it's partially just for appearances
 
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sos

sos

Specialist
Jul 22, 2024
311
i'll be looking forward for it to be night time, being very tired & to fall asleep

10/10 activity
 
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abchia

abchia

Student
Aug 28, 2023
179
Recently, playing Farm Merge Valley. I play it throguh discord and it's embarrassing but that's the only thing I look forward to when I get up in the morning.
 
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MeltingBrain

MeltingBrain

Wizard
May 29, 2023
608
first thought is lighting a cig. then a swig of whatever alcohol i have around.
Hell yeah 😎
Right now, coffee and YouTube. After being locked up for 11 months, I've been catching up on things.
If you don't mind , why were you locked up ?
I will spend my last days trying to defeat Trump. It's the only thing that brings me pleasure any more. He intentionally destroyed my life. Alone, I make no difference. I just hope and pray this some kind of karmic reprecussions or God will stop this guy from hurting others like he hurt me.

It's a little ironic since I won't live to see the election. It's not possible to comprehend the pain & suffering this guy caused me. I wouldn't be suicidal if Trump didn't con me out of all my money. I went from full-time work, full-time school, playing in a band, and a new career........to sick and unable to get out of bed to work a part-time......all because I was stupid enough to trust a polician with my money.

Going to go to Twitter right now and try to spread the truth about this German Nazi. Literally the only pleasure I ever get any more.
What did trump do to affect you personally ?
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,653
i dread waking up to this mental and physical torture everyday just wish i would die in my sleep
 
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