snooperdooper
Student
- Jan 27, 2024
- 102
So I guess compared to yesterday where I finally decided that I've had enough and I couldn't push any further over the limit, this day has been bearable. I had a fun chat with a friend and entertained myself and felt very relaxed. One of the neighbors cats appeared at the backdoor which they've never done, which was nice. And although one of my cats is always very cuddling and kind and loving, they actually walked into my room when before they have literally done everything they can to avoid going into my room. They left when I offered but still that felt very weird.
It's not enough to stop me from CTB, but it all feels so weird. I often psych myself out to believe in an afterlife but I have a logical belief in there being nothing after we die, so why is this happening? Just small coincidences that are fucking me up too much?
It's not enough to stop me from CTB, but it all feels so weird. I often psych myself out to believe in an afterlife but I have a logical belief in there being nothing after we die, so why is this happening? Just small coincidences that are fucking me up too much?
