Weed and suicidality

[rs929]

I'm curious what are your experiences on weed when depressed.
Does it help you or make you worse? Does it affect suicidal thoughts?

 

[karakoltriste]

I thought they were helping me, but now I don't know. I take different drugs and I'm not sure if any of them increase my suicidal ideation apart from pregabalin.
but most of the time it helps me

 

[CandyK__]

It just made me overanalyze everything even more and be more depressed afterwards

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

It lets me just veg out and forget I'm existing. Days pass by in a blur and I have no time or energy to focus on how much shit sucks.

 

[Mooncry]

It makes me agonizingly self-conscious to the point where I'm literally balled up and having a breakdown over being perceived. I'm already extremely self-conscious sober, weed just amplifies it x100. Worst feeling in the world and I'll never touch it again.

 

[sambrosia]

Weed weirdly makes me want to live. Lmao (talking indica here, which has been the strand of late)

As much as I wish for and logic myself into ctb when I'm sober, on weed I just appreciate the extent of how horrific and sad it is that someone would take themselves out. I also get hopeful about wanting to live, I also get more chill about whatever's wrong in my life. (Maybe I should've smoked during my mental breakdown last year, chilling myself out would've spared me lots of shit that's contributing to my current suicidality.)