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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,530
I don't want to try to heal anymore (I've been trying since 2004). Bipolar/borderline/severe social phobia/ géneralised anciety disorder/widowed/ mother with alzheimer/not friend/not work...feeling of dépression and suicdal +++

I just want to die. I'm tired of people offering me solutions to get better when it's not worth it. 85/100 depression/anxiety since 2004, with 15/100 of correct moments. That's not a good ratio for me. I have to kill myself.
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

🔑 Friends with Aera23
Apr 10, 2025
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Not sure it is a have-to vs wish-to... (tho wow, a lot of diagnoses) but still, I have had death wishes in the past. No idea if the medications are harming, helping, doing nothing much, etc... tho if ever stopping medication, don't do suddenly, and get a doctor to plan the taper to minimise side effects.

Sending hugs from Australia :3
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Wizard
Jul 9, 2025
649
I feel the same. Severe social phobia/ generalized anxiety disorder / not friend or partner / no work. And many other issues (rare disease, disability).
How could we be happy ? I wonder why I'm still alive at my age (43). My psychiatrist gave ma another med but I don't take it. I know it won't work. Only valium helps a little bit for anxiety. Surviving all these years. We deserve a gold medal fellows !
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,530
I dont want to try....
 
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58Alice85

58Alice85

Autogynephile
Aug 31, 2025
153
i feel like everything is so awful 'trying to heal' does not make any sense anymore as a course of action
 
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