want to do it tonight but know I won't...

[helpsh]

I wish I had the courage to do it, my life is massively going downhill and I can't escape an awful relationship and home life. I wish someone could encourage me to go through with it.

 

[hope1]

At least a big part of you wants to still live then it sounds like. I know you must be in a lot of pain but I encourage you to listen to that part of you and keep going. Things can get better, you just never know

 

[Kalista]

do what you have to. no one else can tell you what needs to be done since it's going to be your choice in the end.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be really dreadful what you go through, it's truly so cruel how people suffer so much in this existence. But anyway I wish you the best.