I guess I shouldn't have directly ask...
Well Now the answer has become really easy.....I'm 26 years and I haven't achieved anything in my life..I know I'll not in the future. And I always knew I'll kill myself someday over time the feeling only grew stronger, and I'm on the edge. I don't want to live like this. Recently i found out about this forum. So I thought I can talk some people, honestly I don't want kill myself in a painful way, so I'm looking for mostly poisons. If i can't become successful there is no point in living