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Canri

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May 22, 2025
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i really am so glad this forum exists. i figured there were people who had the same views on this, but never really thought a forum could exist. i'm glad it does.

i have felt so isolated and so alone. i've felt like i've been alone in these feelings and i haven't been able to share them without feeling like i'll be getting sent to a mental hospital, being told "don't do it" or other cliche stupid advice, or someone just saying "have to tried a therapist?" no one has ever felt genuinely supportive in any way.

anyway: i have wanted to ctb for so long and have a history of attempting. i've thought about not being alone for it or catching it with someone else, but i'm more than glad knowing there might be people who genuinely just wish the best for me. it hurts knowing most of my friends wouldn't just say "goodbye" or anything and instead all try the same "routine" people normally use. i understand it though, i'd be scared to tell a friend "haha yup! good luck!!!" too. it's not that i'm mad at them about it, it just hurts.

sn, and i guess oding in general, sounds good, and honestly probably sounds like the "objectively best" method, but i know it won't be what i choose. i don't know how to explain what i mean. it's kind of like how fast food sucks objectively, but it might be your favorite, i guess.

there's a lot more i wish i could say but i don't have the words/courage yet. thanks everyone here though! lurking this forum has honestly made me feel better than any therapist or meds i've ever tried. i've seen a lot of other people say the same and that makes me happy. i think it's ironic people are so closed-minded to something that really helps.
 
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i really am so glad this forum exists. i figured there were people who had the same views on this, but never really thought a forum could exist. I'm glad it does.

i have felt so isolated and so alone. I've felt like I've been alone in these feelings and i haven't been able to share them without feeling like I'll be getting sent to a mental hospital, being told "don't do it" or other cliche stupid advice, or someone just saying "have to tried a therapist?" no one has ever felt genuinely supportive in any way.

anyway: i have wanted to ctb for so long and have a history of attempting. i've thought about not being alone for it or catching it with someone else, but i'm more than glad knowing there might be people who genuinely just wish the best for me. it hurts knowing most of my friends wouldn't just say "goodbye" or anything and instead all try the same "routine" people normally use. i understand it though, i'd be scared to tell a friend "haha yup! good luck!!!" too. it's not that i'm mad at them about it, it just hurts.

sn, and i guess oding in general, sounds good, and honestly probably sounds like the "objectively best" method, but i know it won't be what i choose. i don't know how to explain what i mean. it's kind of like how fast food sucks objectively, but it might be your favorite, i guess.

there's a lot more i wish i could say but i don't have the words/courage yet. thanks everyone here though! lurking this forum has honestly made me feel better than any therapist or meds i've ever tried. i've seen a lot of other people say the same and that makes me happy. i think it's ironic people are so closed-minded to something that really helps.
I'm so glad you've found community within us, dear! I know how cold and unfeeling the world can be at us for long periods of time, and how isolation may distort our views further, but I can say that for the short time I've been here, it has been wonderful. Not bumpless, but a huge improvement over isolation!

I hope you stay with us and make this community even better! I think we all care about each other here, in one way or another, be via friendships or just a sense that we all know what is to suffer, and we don't want others to.

*hugs* Stay safe and comfy, honey. I'm always rooting for you! 🧸
 
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Canri

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May 22, 2025
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I'm so glad you've found community within us, dear! I know how cold and unfeeling the world can be at us for long periods of time, and how isolation may distort our views further, but I can say that for the short time I've been here, it has been wonderful. Not bumpless, but a huge improvement over isolation!

I hope you stay with us and make this community even better! I think we all care about each other here, in one way or another, be via friendships or just a sense that we all know what is to suffer, and we don't want others to.

*hugs* Stay safe and comfy, honey. I'm always rooting for you! 🧸
thank you! :) i agree with everything you said and i'm glad this place has helped you too
 
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