Update about my situation...

[noname223]

I went for the jugular from my former therapist. I think she feels the pressure and currently looks for a lawyer. I think she fucked up the situation pretty hard and I think the lawyer had to be really good to make a real change. This week I have an appointment with my psychiatrist about the situation and I am very nervous...The appointment is pretty early at the morning. And that's not good. Maybe I will take a benzo beforehand. I have the feeling she sort of teams up with her...which is unfair.

The progressive woman who I had a date with didn't answer my text message. I wonder whether I should text her again. I am really not sure about her intentions. Maybe she is only playing with me.

I am invited to a birthday party of a friend this week. Not sure how this will impact my mental health. I need to stay stable.

I bought some things on the internet and it sucessfully distracts me. I notice though stimulation by academic texts are the best way to distract me from my issues. I get the feeling I have a committment to read enough texts on a daily basis to be such a smart-ass. The interesting thing though I am never a smart-ass about the things I actually read. If I have this much information on a topic I am hesitant to have a strong opinion. But I have strong position when it is about introspection. I think this is something I do all the time. But this is susceptible for biases.

I am getting clean of benzos the last days. I haven't touch them. Without withdrawal symptoms. But I am taking z-medication since 3,5 weeks straight. I think maximum should be 6 weeks. This could become crucial. My stomach still hurts all the time. I try not to binge eat. But my stomach is pretty insane lately.

I didn't go to the self-help group. I think the chemistry master student is manipulating one person to hate me. The dude who has the crazy postition that if there is a shooting he only has empathy for one person (the shooter).
But really I don't care this much. The person will realize eventually which kind of person she is. Recently, I had to think about something. Whether people who are in favor of Israel in the Middle East conflict are in generally a red flag. My former therapist was staunchly pro-Israel and criticized me for going to a pro-Palestine protest. She put me in the Nazi corner for it. She turned out to be really phoney. And I have the feeling many people who are in favor of Israel where I live are careerists. They posture themselves as morally superior on top of that. I know some people in favor of Israel. For example, the dude that gets manipulated by the chemistry master student. And another college friend. And I get the feeling either these people are pretty brainwashed, don't know dick about the actual conflict or are straight morally corrupt.

I think though being pro-Palestine is still no green flag for me. It is good but you cannot judge the moral integrity by that. I am not fully sure.

 

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I went for the jugular from my former therapist. I think she feels the pressure and currently looks for a lawyer. I think she fucked up the situation pretty hard and I think the lawyer had to be really good to make a real change. This week I have an appointment with my psychiatrist about the situation and I am very nervous...The appointment is pretty early at the morning. And that's not good. Maybe I will take a benzo beforehand. I have the feeling she sort of teams up with her...which is unfair.

Is she teaming up with her?

If a psychiatrist is doing anything less than actively discouraging legal action against a fellow mental health practitioner, I'd probably read that as a genuine intention and meaningful effort to support you. For her to endorse the idea of suing your therapist would be to speak against her colleague in the context of malpractice, and if this became public knowledge, it could have consequences for her own reputation and career. I'd expect anyone in your psychiatrist's position would figure themselves as being in a delicate position, caught in the middle between you and your former therapist amidst the prospect of legal action.

I would recommend trying to allow your psychiatrist a lot of latitude as far as what she says and does regarding this topic.

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

I think though being pro-Palestine is still no green flag for me. It is good but you cannot judge the moral integrity by that. I am not fully sure.

Definitely. I've unfortunately met some people that only use being pro-Palestine as a guise to hide their other shortcomings.

Being anti-Indigenous, antisemitic (most accusations of antisemitism by big Zionists are false, but unfortunately it does exist in the community), capitalist, or antitheist (this might be a bit controversial for me to call a shortcoming on this site, but I fully believe that lumping all religions, even all Abrahamic religions together, is prejudiced).

 

[noname223]

Is she teaming up with her?

If a psychiatrist is doing anything less than actively discouraging legal action against a fellow mental health practitioner, I'd probably read that as a genuine intention and meaningful effort to support you. For her to endorse the idea of suing your therapist would be to speak against her colleague in the context of malpractice, and if this became public knowledge, it could have consequences for her own reputation and career. I'd expect anyone in your psychiatrist's position would figure themselves as being in a delicate position, caught in the middle between you and your former therapist amidst the prospect of legal action.

I would recommend trying to allow your psychiatrist a lot of latitude as far as what she says and does regarding this topic.

Thank you for this very helpful information. I need to stay calm. Thanks a lot Link you supported me so much through this. Thank you from the deepest of my heart. I know I have a very clear notion of what is right. But strategically my approach brought me in a pretty comfortable position who is more trustworthy in this conflict.

I am not sure whether she is teaming up. She is against escalation. I did not have a long conversation thus far. It gonna be this week though.

I am technically not sueing my therapist. I am just reporting her. That'a huge difference I think. I wasn't sure about the difference thus far. I don't know all the technical terms in English. I won't sue her that's for sure. It won't cost me money and there is way less risk for me in the comparison to sueing her. I just want to clean my medical records. And reporting her could fix that. I have a pretty strong case.

By the way she cannot threaten me with a lawyer. Actually, she could but this would backfire massively. I haven't made allegations towards her thus far. All I did was documenting and insisting on my rights as a patient.

 

[noname223]

I might have a smoking gun in the case..she admitted to something severe today...

 

[noname223]

So the whole thing got even way worse and way more cynical. I had an appointment with my psychiatrist and she actually teams up with my former therapist. That's sick.
She repeated in some ways her narrative. I would be paranoid and distrustful. And that I had OCD in controlling things. These are two tallking points my former therapist repeats to weaken my position.

I document the case really in-depth. That's true. But my distrustfulness is legitimized. I also argued that in a lengthy note I wrote yesterday for my psychiatrist. I was really careful how to put it. Because I dismantle allegations against me in this document. I might use it for my report.
My psychiatrist admitted though that some statements of my former therapist are indeed wrong. Especially, the ones with which she damages my trustworthyness towards instititutions. I still think I have a pretty good hand because of my documentation. I don't want to report my psychiatrist too. However, my therapist and psychiatrist seemingly phoned together about the case recently. And the way she put it makes it seem like this happened more than once. Because she refered to something that happened last week. And I already had the feeling they communicated. Actually, this isn't allowed. They are not allowed to talk about my case without my agreement. Not sure whether I should document that. I am not sure about the intentions of my psychiatrist. But she doesn't seem to an honest actor. She is biased and should actually be neutral instead.
My psychiatrist admitted not to have read all documents. I told her that's essential to understand the full context.

I still have one big argument. I still might have my smoking gun. It is not 100% clear I have this smoking gun. But I demanded my right to get that evidence. And surprisingly my former therapist is silent about this demand and seemingly panicks because I have the legal right to get that evidence. I also told my psychiatrist about it but in different words of course. If this holds, I have won the whole case probably. She might lose her licence. Even if this isn't my intention.
I still think even without the smoking gun I have a strong hand. But obviously it would have been better my psychiatrist supported me. But many people warned me that psychiatrists and therapists usually defend each other. The patient's counsellors almost all complimented a lot. for my texts They asked me whether I have studied law. Lol.

I also told my psychiatrist if there is a way to correct my medical records without reporting my therapist I would do that. And I will try that and the report is only a measure of last resort.

What is you opinion on that @-Link- ? thanks a lot in advance.

 

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I still might have my smoking gun.

If this is objective proof of a violation and grounds for getting your medical record amended, then that alone may be cause to stop discussing this any further with your psychiatrist or your former therapist, especially if they seem closed off to the idea of doing it on their own accord. If you already have the proof you need (or at least have a clear path to obtain the proof), then I'd question what benefit there is in further discussing it with them at all.

If this proof of violation is not grounds or helpful to your case as far as getting your medical record changed (which is your stated goal here), then I would be careful of connotations relating to any statements or actions that could be construed as, "Change my records or else I'll pursue this other thing" (ie. extortion). If this sounds accurate to your situation, then you'll want to tread very carefully and almost certainly want the guidance of a patients' rights advocate in doing so.

Another consideration here is whether the suspect information in your medical record is as consequential as what your fear is telling you and whether this fear could be tainting your interpretation of the information, especially contrast to how other medical professionals would interpret it.

As well, to the best of my knowledge and generally speaking, medical records aren't "changed"; they are amended, with original notes and information kept intact while amendments would note any inaccuracies or disputes. Your written dispute could (would?) become part of your record. If this is the case, then you might actually be drawing more attention to those suspect details than if you didn't dispute it in the first place. Even it's officially amended, that doesn't discount the "human factor" where anyone reading the amended record could still be influenced by the original information, subsequently affecting their opinions or decision-making process, even if only subconsciously and unofficially. I'd expect any patients' rights advocate to know more about this as far as what a "change" would actually look like, whether it's possible to literally erase something that's already been noted in your record, whether you'd be better off pursuing this or leaving it alone, and what impact you could anticipate from either option.

I don't want to report my psychiatrist too. However, my therapist and psychiatrist seemingly phoned together about the case recently. And the way she put it makes it seem like this happened more than once.

Generally speaking, medical practitioners can have a way of looking out for one another where malpractice implications are concerned because, for their purposes, it's in their collective best interest to limit as much as possible the number of claims and reports pushed forward and validated.

If a psychiatrist and therapist are communicating about a patient without that patient's consent, that's a wrong that would ideally be accounted for. But what is "ideal" is not always what's practical or realistic. With the burden of proof in mind, I would reconsider the idea of pursuing something against your psychiatrist over this and, instead, maybe the better thing to do would be to stop talking about it with her.

I had an appointment with my psychiatrist and she actually teams up with my former therapist. That's sick.
She repeated in some ways her narrative. I would be paranoid and distrustful. And that I had OCD in controlling things. These are two tallking points my former therapist repeats to weaken my position.

If you do discuss this further with your psychiatrist, it may help your own standing and credibility in the situation if you can concede that your former therapist did have some valid points. Even in a scenario where a therapist has done something that would cost them their license, that still doesn't negate the things they did right in their role as a therapist.

On the other side of this is you, yourself. Based on what you've shared about this situation, I'm surmising a high likelihood that obsessive-compulsive thoughts will indeed be aggravating or distorting some of your own viewpoints on this. I have to imagine it's OK to acknowledge this (if only to maintain your perceived credibility) and that there is a way to concede this while simultaneously maintaining the integrity of any official report or claim you make against your former therapist. (But this may call for a careful balance in how you phrase things.)

I am not sure about the intentions of my psychiatrist. But she doesn't seem to an honest actor. She is biased and should actually be neutral instead.

One way for her to "be neutral" would be to distance herself.

But the other way would be for her to try to actively support you while also looking out for the interests of your former therapist. So, I wonder if she actually is trying to remain neutral but that her effort is just having a less-than-ideal result -- ie. leading you to question her trustworthiness.

This by itself wouldn't necessarily mean your psychiatrist has been violating confidentiality. It could be that she's been getting information from patient records, or maybe she's just drawing her own conclusions and those conclusions happen to be similar to those of your former therapist.

In saying this, I'm just giving her the benefit of the doubt. I couldn't hazard an actual guess as to whether she's doing right or wrong.

The patient's counsellors almost all complimented a lot. for my texts They asked me whether I have studied law. Lol.

If these counsellors are in official capacity as patients' rights advocates, I would suggest picking the one that you feel most confident about and then deferring to their guidance on this. If they dissuade you from pursuing it (even with objective evidence in hand), I think you'd do well to abide by that advice. If they concede it may be worth pursuing and are willing to help see you through that, then you'd have the confidence of knowing an advocate is representing you and also sharing the burden and stress of your case, which I'm sure would be a lot less taxing on your well-being compared to pursuing it all on your own.

 

[noname223]

If this is objective proof of a violation and grounds for getting your medical record amended, then that alone may be cause to stop discussing this any further with your psychiatrist or your former therapist, especially if they seem closed off to the idea of doing it on their own accord. If you already have the proof you need (or at least have a clear path to obtain the proof), then I'd question what benefit there is in further discussing it with them at all.

If this proof of violation is not grounds or helpful to your case as far as getting your medical record changed (which is your stated goal here), then I would be careful of connotations relating to any statements or actions that could be construed as, "Change my records or else I'll pursue this other thing" (ie. extortion). If this sounds accurate to your situation, then you'll want to tread very carefully and almost certainly want the guidance of a patients' rights advocate in doing so.

Another consideration here is whether the suspect information in your medical record is as consequential as what your fear is telling you and whether this fear could be tainting your interpretation of the information, especially contrast to how other medical professionals would interpret it.

As well, to the best of my knowledge and generally speaking, medical records aren't "changed"; they are amended, with original notes and information kept intact while amendments would note any inaccuracies or disputes. Your written dispute could (would?) become part of your record. If this is the case, then you might actually be drawing more attention to those suspect details than if you didn't dispute it in the first place. Even it's officially amended, that doesn't discount the "human factor" where anyone reading the amended record could still be influenced by the original information, subsequently affecting their opinions or decision-making process, even if only subconsciously and unofficially. I'd expect any patients' rights advocate to know more about this as far as what a "change" would actually look like, whether it's possible to literally erase something that's already been noted in your record, whether you'd be better off pursuing this or leaving it alone, and what impact you could anticipate from either option.


Generally speaking, medical practitioners can have a way of looking out for one another where malpractice implications are concerned because, for their purposes, it's in their collective best interest to limit as much as possible the number of claims and reports pushed forward and validated.

If a psychiatrist and therapist are communicating about a patient without that patient's consent, that's a wrong that would ideally be accounted for. But what is "ideal" is not always what's practical or realistic. With the burden of proof in mind, I would reconsider the idea of pursuing something against your psychiatrist over this and, instead, maybe the better thing to do would be to stop talking about it with her.


If you do discuss this further with your psychiatrist, it may help your own standing and credibility in the situation if you can concede that your former therapist did have some valid points. Even in a scenario where a therapist has done something that would cost them their license, that still doesn't negate the things they did right in their role as a therapist.

On the other side of this is you, yourself. Based on what you've shared about this situation, I'm surmising a high likelihood that obsessive-compulsive thoughts will indeed be aggravating or distorting some of your own viewpoints on this. I have to imagine it's OK to acknowledge this (if only to maintain your perceived credibility) and that there is a way to concede this while simultaneously maintaining the integrity of any official report or claim you make against your former therapist. (But this may call for a careful balance in how you phrase things.)


One way for her to "be neutral" would be to distance herself.

But the other way would be for her to try to actively support you while also looking out for the interests of your former therapist. So, I wonder if she actually is trying to remain neutral but that her effort is just having a less-than-ideal result -- ie. leading you to question her trustworthiness.

This by itself wouldn't necessarily mean your psychiatrist has been violating confidentiality. It could be that she's been getting information from patient records, or maybe she's just drawing her own conclusions and those conclusions happen to be similar to those of your former therapist.

In saying this, I'm just giving her the benefit of the doubt. I couldn't hazard an actual guess as to whether she's doing right or wrong.


If these counsellors are in official capacity as patients' rights advocates, I would suggest picking the one that you feel most confident about and then deferring to their guidance on this. If they dissuade you from pursuing it (even with objective evidence in hand), I think you'd do well to abide by that advice. If they concede it may be worth pursuing and are willing to help see you through that, then you'd have the confidence of knowing an advocate is representing you and also sharing the burden and stress of your case, which I'm sure would be a lot less taxing on your well-being compared to pursuing it all on your own.

I am not sure how to evaluate the day. Maybe I have made myself a new way smarter enemy my psychiatrist. She is pretty savvy way smarter than my therapist. But honestly she was on the side of my therapist all along. I told my psychiatrist in a mail to please keep confidentiality. You might be right that I should not change the reocrd if it can be interpreted as extortion. The patient counsellors all say different things. I called them for more than 10 times. The last one said if I have proof the documents were changed retrospectively and I can prove it I really should report that. They all compliment me a lot.

The last counsellor told me I should contact my therapist for changing the record before reporting her. I think you are right I should not report my psychiatrist too. This would be strategically not smart. I will tell you more about the smoking gun in the private conversation.

Today my psychiatrist told me she called my therapist and specified that they talked about details of the case. I wonder whether my psychiatrist wants to be tied to a sinking ship. I asked her whether it is actually allowed to communicate about my case with her.

I will elaborate on certain parts more in the private conversation. Thanks a lot!

I am not sure about my psychiatrist. I promised her not to escalate the situation if it is unnecessary. I think she liked that. I am not sure about her real thoughts on the case. I had the feeling she felt the duty to defend my therapist.

 

[noname223]

I had a long phone call with a patient's counsellor yesterday. He contradicted other counsellors but with dived into the topic really in-depth. I wanted to rate him after the phone call but I accidentally hung up. He must have thought this was intentionally which made me feel really bad.

So my therapist fucked it up even more. Once again she sort of admitted in a mail to the worst allegation about her. I don't have a final proof. But maybe I will get that sooner or later. I am not sure. I don't want to ruin her career but if the smoking gun holds her career is over.

 

[noname223]

Not sure what to say. Yesterday, I had a pretty bad call with a patient's counsellor the things he said contradicted my strategy completely. He protected my therapist. However, I talked to 3-4 other patient counsellors who agreed with my point of view on this issue.

I feel like I need a break of all of this.

 

[noname223]

I think I lost the conflict. I could cry... I insisted on getting a copy of my medical records. She gave me a document to my psychiatrist where she spread lies about me. And my psychiatrist even teamed up with her. I wanted to get a physical copy of the minutes of the sessions. The writen protocols of every session. I knew they will probably confirm my narrative. But she just changed them retrospectively which would be a falsification of documents if I could prove it. That'a a crime and she simply did that. She could lose her licence over that. Then I might have made a mistake. I talked with some patient counsellors and I talked to AI. And both confirmed I have a right for a digital copy of my medical records in this instance the minutes of every session. My strategy was getting these digital copies. It would prove her falsification of the documents.

But now it seems like what the patient counsellors and AI told me was wrong. Or at least highly controversial. This is at least something more patient counsellors told me now. I had to start a legal battle to get a digital copy of the minutes of every session. Simply reporting her won't be enough. Even though, there are contradictions in her statements. And to make things even worse she sent me fake screenshots that look like she actually told the truth. But I am very certain she used a trick to manipulate the variation in time in these screenshots. And I don't have the right to the get the actual digital copies to prove that lie. This evening I talked to another patient counsellor and she says I have no chance to get the digital copies unless I sue her with a high risk. Now I am really not sure what to do. Again, talking to a patient counsellor? - some agree, some disagree with the question whether I have a right to get the meta data and audit trails. However, I get the feeling the one's who are more specialized disagree with it. Something I did not know. All these people say different things. I talk to them on a daily basis. I won't sue her this would cost me a couple of thousand Euros. I only relied on this strategy because some patient counsellors confirmed this was my right.

The whole thing was also a battle of wits. And it seems like I lost. The power structure was very assymetrical though. She abused her rights as a therapist in the worst way imaginable. And when I report her you can read her strategy in the way she writes. There are still some valid points I can report her for.
I think on moral integrity I won. Her actions were rotten to the core. The worst abuse I ever experienced in my life as an adult. Moreover, I was right about a fact she disputed. I think this was what infuriated her and started the whole conflict. But she was simply wrong about that memory. I was right. However, she realized it later otherwise I could use it as evidence.

I think I won't kill myself because all of this. At least not now maybe later. I think people like her would actually want something like that. And I won't take revenge in any form. She tries that I won't be supported by the welfare state. How depraved can one be?

I am not sure what to do now. Tomorrow I might phone again with a legal expert and hope he agrees that I can get a digital copy of the minutes of the session. Otherwise I don't know what to do. Following this strategy was risky but now with her faked screenshots I literally have no chance. I had to change my strategy but this won't work without humiliating me. The fake screenshots were the nail in the coffin for my strategy. But I wasn't sure she actually takes such a risk. She could go the prison for that. But she probably knows I had to sue her for getting the digital copies and I won't take that risk.

The situation is horrible. And I really despise her. I can still report her for her actions. But the recent development wasn't good at all.

Can anyone comfort me?


My mom belittles me over it... and makes everything worse.

 

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I would reiterate what I noted on an earlier occasion:

If she did indeed add a negative opinion to your record, she would only be one voice among many. For purposes of government assessments, they look at the entirety of a patient's case, and you have a lengthy history in mental healthcare that would easily refute any suggestion that you're lying. If she in fact stated that in your record, she'd be disputing your entire mental health history, basically disputing everyone else who's authored anything in your record. It seems if anything would be at risk, it would be her credibility.

And I'd add here to think about the totality of the state of your mental health and consider that, generally speaking, government disability support systems are literally created and designed for people in your kind of situation.

Are you actually a fraud? Clearly not. The truth is on your side, and in a mental health case involving disability supports, the truth counts for a lot.

Even if this therapist would bluntly claim you're malingering, that would not discount all your previous medical history, or any information that gets added to your medical record in the future. Over the long term, if your case file comes under scrutiny, and she's the outlier speaking the opposite of everyone else, the only thing at risk would be her own credibility.

No one is going to take the word of a therapist who's claiming fraud about a patient who (I'm assuming) has at least several different psychiatrists and other mental health professionals saying otherwise. And even in the worst case scenario where someone does take her at her word, I'd expect all you'd be looking at is a follow-up psychiatrist consultation to clarify things.

I mean, even your local police department would have a record that supports the truthfulness of your situation. Most mental health patients and people receiving disability support couldn't say the same.

You mention talking to multiple (several?) patient counsellors about this. I feel like it may be doing you more harm than good for you to be hearing all these conflicting opinions. If it makes sense, then I would suggest picking only one of these counsellors to continue engaging about this. Pick the one you feel the most trust with -- not the one who's telling you what you think you want to hear, but the one you get along with best and trust the most. If you don't trust any of them, then pick the one who feels "least untrustworthy". And then whichever counsellor this is, try to follow their guidance with little-or-no deviation.

I also feel like you would do well to get transferred out of the care of this therapist and this psychiatrist, and to sever contact with them once that happens. A patient counsellor should know whether that makes sense for you and how to best handle that process.

Deep breaths. Focus on facts and evidence. Any time you catch your brain telling you predictions or assumptions, remind yourself those are part of the brain's response to overwhelm and then try to shift focus back onto facts and evidence. I am confident you have it in you to get through this, and I hope you can see and believe that, yourself, too.

 

[noname223]

I would reiterate what I noted on an earlier occasion:


And I'd add here to think about the totality of the state of your mental health and consider that, generally speaking, government disability support systems are literally created and designed for people in your kind of situation.

Are you actually a fraud? Clearly not. The truth is on your side, and in a mental health case involving disability supports, the truth counts for a lot.

Even if this therapist would bluntly claim you're malingering, that would not discount all your previous medical history, or any information that gets added to your medical record in the future. Over the long term, if your case file comes under scrutiny, and she's the outlier speaking the opposite of everyone else, the only thing at risk would be her own credibility.

No one is going to take the word of a therapist who's claiming fraud about a patient who (I'm assuming) has at least several different psychiatrists and other mental health professionals saying otherwise. And even in the worst case scenario where someone does take her at her word, I'd expect all you'd be looking at is a follow-up psychiatrist consultation to clarify things.

I mean, even your local police department would have a record that supports the truthfulness of your situation. Most mental health patients and people receiving disability support couldn't say the same.

You mention talking to multiple (several?) patient counsellors about this. I feel like it may be doing you more harm than good for you to be hearing all these conflicting opinions. If it makes sense, then I would suggest picking only one of these counsellors to continue engaging about this. Pick the one you feel the most trust with -- not the one who's telling you what you think you want to hear, but the one you get along with best and trust the most. If you don't trust any of them, then pick the one who feels "least untrustworthy". And then whichever counsellor this is, try to follow their guidance with little-or-no deviation.

I also feel like you would do well to get transferred out of the care of this therapist and this psychiatrist, and to sever contact with them once that happens. A patient counsellor should know whether that makes sense for you and how to best handle that process.

Deep breaths. Focus on facts and evidence. Any time you catch your brain telling you predictions or assumptions, remind yourself those are part of the brain's response to overwhelm and then try to shift focus back onto facts and evidence. I am confident you have it in you to get through this, and I hope you can see and believe that, yourself, too.

I read all your posts again on this issue. I am not going to sue but maybe I will report her. Patient counsellors adviced me the following. For finding my own inner peace on this case, I should report her. And just in case the medical records will be used against me in one day At least I will be able to say I did what was possible for getting rid of these evil smears. I tried what was possible.

 

[noname223]

Wait...I might have her on something. I demanded to get a copy of my medical records within a certain deadline some time ago. The deadline is crossed a long time since. She sent me these fake ass screenshots recently. I cannot falsify them sadly. But I realized something. The notes which she screenshotted were not included in the copy of my medical records. The medical records she sent me were not complete. This can be punished. And I even wrote to her if she does not send me my complete medical records that I will report her. It is more of a technical violation and not as stunning as my smoking gun but it might be enough for reporting her. I will add all the other things she did in my reporting.

 

[-Link-]

The notes which she screenshotted were not included in the copy of my medical records. The medical records she sent me were not complete.

It may depend on the nature of the notes. The medical record would consist of progress reports, discharge summaries, etc., but not necessarily a therapist's personal notes from session to session.

Any comments that are confined to her personal notes and not reflected in your medical record, I think at least generally speaking (I'm certainly not an authority on this), would be inaccessible to third parties -- eg. insurers, government assessors, other medical practitioners, etc. But this would depend on regulations in your jurisdiction, how your healthcare system manages this data, and maybe whether consent to share information has been given. A patient counsellor should (ideally) be able to say for certain.

 

[noname223]

It may depend on the nature of the notes. The medical record would consist of progress reports, discharge summaries, etc., but not necessarily a therapist's personal notes from session to session.

Any comments that are confined to her personal notes and not reflected in your medical record, I think at least generally speaking (I'm certainly not an authority on this), would be inaccessible to third parties -- eg. insurers, government assessors, other medical practitioners, etc. But this would depend on regulations in your jurisdiction, how your healthcare system manages this data, and maybe whether consent to share information has been given. A patient counsellor should (ideally) be able to say for certain.

The nature of the notes are quite similar to the minutes of every session. They look literally the same.
I will ask a patient counsellor about it.

 

[noname223]

Finally, some good news. I am approaching the end of reporting my former therapist. I might will need like 1-2 weeks. Maybe only one week work. I take daily addictive sleep medication. I counted my pills up and yes I am a hoarder. I am a hoarder for good reason I don't trust psychiatrist. If I took the same amount of sleep medication, I could continue that for over 100 days. My psychiatrist is on the side of my therapist. She should not know how bad I feel mentally this could bee used against me. And that I am reliant on them.

After calling patient counsellors over probably 15 times they adviced me to go somewhere else. It is an organization that is dedicated to fight abuse in psychotherapy. I contacted them. After a phone call, that will soon take place, if this person seems trustworthy I am allowed to send her some documents to proof read them. This takes some pressure from my shoulders. Let's hope she doesn't side with my therapist like my psychiatrist. My trust in psychotherapy is already negative...

 

[noname223]

I am nervous about this phone call that will take place tomorrow. So much fucked up things happened with the last two months. It would not surprise if the person from the organization against abuse in therapy, was actually on the side of my abusive therapist. After all the shit I went through it does not seem to be unlikley...

 

[noname223]

Good news! The woman was very friendly and competent. She gave me some hope in the system back. She was on my side in contrast to my psychiatrist. She believed me. I am allowed to send her my documents for a check. There is professional secrecy and this woman sounded like this is very important to her. In the end its an organization against abuse in therapy. Am I 100% certain she will not do something shady? No, but I think that's my paranoia. This would literally be a crime.

There is one issue though. She does not have the time to take a look at my documenta yet. But in Mid January she will be able to give me feedback. And only after that I will hand in the reporting. I am currently double checking all documents and I still find some mistakes here and there. I will probably check it at least 3 times before officially handing it in.

I will try to stop my addictive sleep medication. I took it straight 7 weeks. Recommended is maximum 4 weeks. But its the lowest dosage. I hope I will still get some sleep for the sake of my sanity.