unable to cry

[akrasia]

I would feel a lot of pain and I feel the need to cry, to let it out. But, nothing comes out, not a single tear. It feels like I lost control of myself, like I'm dead. It's truly an unpleasant feeling.

I was wondering if anyone can relate to this?

 

[esben350]

That sounds like severe depression

 

[LoNatural]

Prozac makes me unable to cry, are you on medication?

 

[selfhater]

i relate, sometimes i wanna cry so i can feel relief but i can't, it's like i've consumed all my tears long time ago

 

[Timetodie90]

This was me for a long time. Then in January I just couldn't stop crying. Now I've stopped crying again. As Lonatural says Prozac can stop you crying this happened to my Aunty.

 

[WhatIsMyLife]

I feel you. I'm so empty on the inside. I don't even feel anything right now. I try to cry, but I just can't. It's so weird.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I would feel a lot of pain and I feel the need to cry, to let it out. But, nothing comes out, not a single tear. It feels like I lost control of myself, like I'm dead. It's truly an unpleasant feeling.

I was wondering if anyone can relate to this?

It´s called apathy I also suffer from extreme apathy and it´s very hard for me to cry despite suffering immensely and in my experience it only get worse by time, I have had it for 5½-6 years and get gets worse every year.

Our family cat died recently she was 18 years old so we have had her for most of my life but when she died I could only cry in small streaks of a few minutes over the course of the day whereas if I was still 19 I would cry been crying all day it´s such a weird "feeling" because it´s like there is something broken inside.

And sometimes in the last 6 years there has even been 2 years between me crying despite going through horrible experiences apathy is the worst it strips you of your feelings I don´t feel happy, I don´t feel sad I don´t even feel excitement anymore nothing can excite me at least with depression as a teenager I would feel sadness but could still be excited about hanging out with friends, playing video games, smoking weed, caring/being passionate about my looks whether it was being Goth or Street later on now I don´t care about my looks or about anything or feel anything I still care about hygiene but for my looks not at all I feel and look so old imo I wanna be a child again or even a teenager with perfect skin, teeth and able to experience life not this old, ugly and emotionless thing I´ve become.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

So am I, but that's because of medications I've been taken

 

[Despondent]

I for sure can relate -- for me, I've turned into an apathetic person though when it comes to emotions haha

 

[ghost-key]

Can definitely relate. I have depression, anxiety and crippling loneliness due to this whole Covid-19 pandemic. I was really lonely before the shutdown but at least I was able to go to work and see my co-workers and whatnot you know? Now I'm just laid off until (hopefully) May 1st. I'm getting off topic here but my point is that I can't remember the last time I've cried, like openly just let it all out. I'm so used to bottling everything up and shrugging it off when things go bad because that's all I'm used to

 

[akrasia]

Prozac makes me unable to cry, are you on medication?

No I'm not

 

[SleeplessSoul]

I totally get this. I used to be able to cry a lot even at stupid things. Despite that, I never cried when my grandparents died. Nowadays I can't cry at all. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to cry but it's kind of like when you think you're going to sneeze but don't?

 

[rata1]

i know this so well. for years i couldnt cry. instead of being able to feel something, my feelings have control over myself. i don't feel, i am just functioning. instead of coming out, my feelings make me behave. and no crying, just functioning...

 

[JSauter]

I experience this inability to cry on anti-depressants

 

[Bct]

I'm also feeling the same. In the past months I wast able to crying, yet now I'm unable to let the tears out. It feels so exhausting.

 

[Saed]

Being in a constant state of fight or flight mode can also cause this

 

[Partial-Elf]

I experience this as well. I didn't cry for years between middle school and when my friend died unexpectedly at age 21, so about seven years. I've cried twice between 21 and 25 and a half, which is where I am now. This was despite feeling lonely, regretful, suicidal, hateful, frustrated, and everything else in spurts throughout that time. I often wished for the ability to cry and frequently passed what I would consider the emotional threshold... it just wouldn't happen for me. I have been at the point where I had the rope around my neck and was seriously contemplating just doing the deed, yet no crying was involved at all.

For me it's not anti depressant related because I didn't start those until maybe six months ago. If anything my bupropion has made it easier for me to cry as I teared up at something quarantine related a few weeks ago and was shocked.

For me I do think gender roles are part of it. I remember being concerned with seeming tough when I was younger, and the other boys definitely would've made fun of me. When people cried in school, it was always an embarrassing freak out moment for them that made everyone else feel uncomfortable. I also think I associated crying with my mom getting mad, because she'd always start crying and yell and isolate herself and slam doors if there was conflict. My dad would certainly never cry. Maybe I didn't have a healthy model of when and how to cry, so I never learned? I also think I tend to avoid or suppress painful emotions when possible, so maybe that has something to do with it.