Too tired to CTB

[khw777]

Anyone else feel this way?

 

[Neurodamaged2]

Same. After all the failed attempts (probably 7+ serious attempts this year), I'm spent. My brain is mush and doesn't have the will to do it anymore.

 

[MaybeMaybeKnot]

I don't ever want to get out of bed. Not to eat or drink or pee or ctb. I always cancel plans including my dr appts. I still haven't started the intensive outpatient therapy I'm supposed to be going to. I just want to sleep or lay with my eyes closed.

 

[Mr2005]

Same. After all the failed attempts (probably 7+ serious attempts this year), I'm spent. My brain is mush and doesn't have the will to do it anymore.

How are you still alive?

 

[Idontexist]

Yes me too... I wish someone kill me instead... do hit man really exists? If so I am ready to give all my money!
I can't even enjoy music anymore....everything is grey.. and I don't want to be part of this world anymore.

 

[WhiteDespair]

Yes me too... I wish someone kill me instead... do hit man really exists? If so I am ready to give all my money!
I can't even enjoy music anymore....everything is grey.. and I don't want to be part of this world anymore.

I also like this idea. At the very least you'll get to see his face when you mention the target. That could be good for a laugh. Knowing my luck I'll wind up with an undercover detective sting operation.

 

[Neurodamaged2]

How are you still alive?

Rope came undone, got found and resuscitated another time, backed out another time, ODed and ended up in the hospital the rest. Apparently I suck at killing myself. Def have brain damage from the attempts though.

 

[friendly99]

I am too depressed to commit suicide. I too wish I could hire a hitman