tonight

[hybridtheory]

I want to ctb so fucking bad tonight, i'm so terribly tired.
I'm miserable, i'm sick of the days passing by and getting nowhere,
i'm sick of having to get out of bed, i'm sick of eating,
talking, moving, blinking, trying, breathing. I have nothing
planned at all, but I so badly want this over tonight.
I'm so desperate, I would pay someone to do it if I could.

I feel like screaming, I have so many voices screwing with
my head. I cannot and I repeat canNOT handle this anymore.

 

[Trainwreck]

I'm right there with you. I'm sorry you're struggling so badly!

 

[hybridtheory]

I'm right there with you. I'm sorry you're struggling so badly!

Thank you, i'm sorry that you are too. I'm here if you ever need to talk

 

[ProlongedSentence]

I would ctb to tonight if I could. I am so ready to commit to this journey. Like. There IS no preparing beforehand for me. My Will is done but I am not cleaning up this mess.(I have over a years worth of mail and paperwork strewn all over the home.)
I want to board. Tonight.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

I'm just counting down until friday night. I'm no longer afraid to do this. I'm just hoping like crazy that I am successful

 

[I’vehadenough]

I want to ctb so fucking bad tonight, i'm so terribly tired.
I'm miserable, i'm sick of the days passing by and getting nowhere,
i'm sick of having to get out of bed, i'm sick of eating,
talking, moving, blinking, trying, breathing. I have nothing
planned at all, but I so badly want this over tonight.
I'm so desperate, I would pay someone to do it if I could.

I feel like screaming, I have so many voices screwing with
my head. I cannot and I repeat canNOT handle this anymore.

I can't stand being alive either, I wish I could get the death penalty without killing anyone