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Venting To want to CTB just feels like drowning while barly alive but living all the same...

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Catchingdabus27

Catchingdabus27

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Dec 8, 2019
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Basically what title says. The pakic to figure out a method. The anxiety of executing. All while having to deal with the agony of living still.

I hate this shit so fucking much. So much that sometimes I live just to not deal with any of this. But I do not want to just live anymore. Sooo.

Here I am trying to go from passively to actively planning something. When all I want is a peaceful existence and if ima no longer exist then a peaceful exit. Why do both feel so fucking impossible... ugh.
 
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